Best friend | Lizrei

Chapter 11 - Stay with me

Liz

I had conducted a whole plan on what to say and do. Yet a week later, I still haven't done it. Maybe it was nerves but something held me back from confessing.

It was nothing but awkwardness between us. At some point it became unbearable that I had to sleep on the couch because being in the same room as her only lead me to tears and kept me up at night.

The urge to talk to her but not being able to utter a word was painful. Seeing her constantly ignore me had my gut twisted. I felt sick in the stomach knowing how much our friendship is messed up.

Rei

The night she moved to sleep in the living room was first time we spoke since I promised I'll get over her.

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"Where are you going?"

She didn't say anything and stood frozen at the door. I was going to ask again until she finally spoke.

"I'll sleep on the couch from now on. I don't want to make you feel uncomfortable in any way so I'll keep my distance."

Liz left, closing the door before I got the chance to say anything.

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After that short conversation, we didn't speak again. It's only been 2 days since then but time seems to slow down when were not together. Everything's boring and lifeless with her chaotic but loveable personality.

Liz is the type of person that finds it difficult to express her feelings but she always made an effect when it came to me. Now I'm not so sure.

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Liz

I stared at my phone, going over my plan once again. Messing up isn't an option anymore, I've done that too many times.

For the past few days, we've out and about touring my home town, seeing the places I use to go and even had dinner with my family. Today we decided to take a rest and do our own things.

I took this time as an opportunity to go through with my plan. As someone who doesn't like to wing things, I usually make up list of everything I need to do in order. But even then, I still get haunted by the worse case scenarios.

It was only 9 am but I had been awake since 4 and haven't had much sleep. The house was dead silent as I was the only one awake and sat alone on a couch downstairs.

The place felt so quiet and lonely, yet peaceful. The stairs creaked by heaving footsteps, making me jolt my head up.

She rubbed her eyes and yawned. "Morning."

"Morning Leeseo. You're up earlier than usual."

The baby sat beside me and rested her head on my shoulder. "I slept earlier but I'm still tired."

"Have you brush your teeth already?" I asked, earning a simple nod.

Leeseo tiredly sat there with her eyes closed, nearly falling asleep until she noticed what was written on my phone. "So you guys did break up. Is this your plan of getting Rei-unnie back?"

Her words surprised me. "We were never dating. It's complicated but yeah I guess you could say that is my way of getting her back."

"Wait you guys weren't dating?" She sat up straight and looked at me confused. "I thought you guys were because you kissed her at that park you always go to."

My eyes grew wide, trying to process what Leeseo just said. "You- You saw that?.."

She nodded slowly. "I was on my way to Rei-unnie's apartment because I wanted to give you almond chocolates before you left. I passed the park and I saw you kiss her then ran away. I just assumed you guys were dating." She ended with a shrug.

I closed my eyes and bit my lip, feeling my face burn up. Why out of all people, Leeseo had to see that?

"Unnie, I never expected you to do that."

"You're not making it any better"

"Okay I'm sorry.."

Rei

I've been awake for who knows how many hours, tossing and turning as I hold my phone, crying at photos. No words can explain how lonely I feel without her and how much I miss her.

I finally turned off my phone, taking a moment to calm down and wipe my tears away. The tiredness was taking over my body and I would've fell asleep if I didn't hear the sounds of chatter.

"I guess some of then are already awake."

Since we're making today a rest day, I should at least do something productive instead of being emotional all day. One problem, I have no idea what to do.

I sat there for a few minutes, trying to think of something productive to occupy my day.

"I should probably clean up first." I headed to the bathroom across the hall, making sure to be quiet as someone might still be sleeping.

After doing my morning routine, I realised how red my eyes were when I looked in the mirror. "What am I going to do with this?.. I guess I could stay in the room til they lighten."

When I opened the door to Liz's room, I was hit with a whiff of her perfume. The familiar scent that reminded me of the first day she wore it.

She said that she'll wear it everyday just because I liked how it smelt.

"I will never move on, will I?" A soft but sad chuckle escaped my lips as I wiped the tear falling down my cheek.

"Rei?.."

I hesitantly turned around, hearing my name from her after a week of not talking.

She gently pushed me into the room and closed the door. "Please don't be sad. I'm sorry for making you feel this way. Please stop ignoring me, it's slowly killing me inside and I can't go another day without talking to you."

Her hands cupped my face, using her fingers to pat my tears dry. All I could do was watch how focused she was.

"I'm sorry but I can't move on."

Liz paused, moving her hands and interlocking it with mine. "Then don't because I haven't. I was just afraid of being hurt again. But I'm willing to risk everything for you."

"I missed you."

"I missed you too." She smiled warmly at me, however pulling her hands away. "But I also want sleep."

I giggled watching her get under the blanket, yawning and closing her eyes.

"Okay, I'll let you sleep." I tucked her in and got ready to leave, when she grabbed my hand.

"No, stay with me."

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The end.