Can 5€ change your life | Lando Fanfiction

Chapter 25

Lina POV:So it was fixed now, in 3 days I will be free from the gang. Then I can finallystart a new life but somehow the 3 days also made me very afraid. Because whatwill I do then? Will I work? What will happen to the boys when they know the truth?know the truth?

Will I ever tell the truth at all, or will I just run awayrun away and leave everything, really everything, behind?

This uncertainty was driving me crazy because there was now a big question mark in front of me that could mean so much. Maybe behind it I will find my happiness or behind it again there is nothing! I will fall again and hit hard, as it was already often in my life but I didn't want to think about it anymore. So I decided to go out and plan my new life.When I arrived at the park I closed my eyes and let only my senses work, and so the smell of freshly mown grass came to my nose. This scent is mantled with the sounds of children laughing and dogs barking, mixed with the warm rays of the sun that touched my skin. I let my thoughts run free. Soon you'll have it made and then you can enjoy all the normal things in life and you won't have to be afraid anymore. Then I will visit my parents and enjoy the time with them.Mick I will of course also call and settle everything with him again. Because I missed my best friend sooooooo much. It was just missing a part of my heart. He is like a brother to me.

But what will the future bring me? Will I have a family with whom I lead in a big house? With a dog and a man I love more than anything? Will I just be able to live my life as it comes and just be spontaneous? The sun's rays warmed my arm so much that it felt like someone was sitting next to me, holding my hand and keeping me company. So my thoughts came to another point that I didn't want to bring up again, but my head was doing what it wanted to do.... Next to me he sits and smiled at me with his perfect eyes and this scent of flowers I knew so well, because it smelled like my shampoo and so it was warm inside me.We were happy and nothing was more between us.NO Lina let that!I immediately tore my eyes open and just sat there and just had to realize what has just gone in my head.He was back in my heart, but there he should disappear forever! HE had destroyed us! Nevertheless, I feel again and again, when I was on the ground, as magically attracted to him. All sweaty I arrived at home again and immediately put me under the shower. I had so hoped to be able to wash down my thoughts with, but no they were firmly burned as in my head. So I went after 10 minutes from the shower, because I had to accept it probably. That thoughts do not disappear like shampoo in the drain. 

2 days later...Tomorrow in the afternoon is the time, I will do the race and so I will be free forever. I was so sure that I will make it with left, because me and my car were just a super team. The evening came closer and closer and so did the next day. The closer I got to the race, the more I felt different. One thing was clear, however, I will not shirk it, because the plan was already forged! My plan was as follows:1. tomorrow I will shoot down the street with the car and so I will bring in the victory.2. immediately I will go to Mike and he will give me free.3. then I will get on the next plane to Imola. Because that's where the guys are racing tomorrow.I'll be there shortly after the podium ceremony to celebrate with them and it's all uphill from there. "EVERYTHING EASY OR LINA ? Did I just say that out loud? Anyway, I'm home alone!" I laughed to myself. When I had thought through my plan again, I packed my things. The apartment I will quit soon and everything should be ready for tomorrow, because I will surprise my boys tomorrow! I do not want to waste a second more, so I pack now already. Nothing just went according to plan, because after packing I was now sitting on the couch with thick tears in my eyes. Because I realized so many things in the short time.what if tomorrow nothing goes well and something will happen? So now I decided to write letters to the boys, or just to those who are close to me.

Letter to Mick: 
Hey Mick,this letter only exists because I wasn't the good girl you know. From our friendship you must know I wasn't the honest one, because I'm in trouble no one wants to be in, that's why I'm out of yourI disappeared from your life.I just want to protect you!I want to thank you here for everything for the things you have done for me.Of course, also the adventures we had together. I have always loved them and that we have to do again just be children again.What would have become of me if II had not met you? I do not know because the option has not become and soI am as I am now.Fuck, that's not true, because I slipped anyway, but because of you I got out of there. I had a normal life again, but then came the illness of my father.Well, we needed again urgently a lot of money and so it came to mymy crash No.2 but this was one too manyBecause where I will be when youThis letter will read, you will see.I love you as my best friend!Sometime we will see each other again, but when that will be, nobody knows yet.Love Lina

Letter to Max:
Hey Max,
thanks again for the option to show my skills at your birthday party. This party was a real blast. Oh yes you Kelly you are really the dream couple, make Kelly always happy, because otherwise you get it to do with me and then I'm no longer the good Lina.No then my real face comes out. Fun but never mess with women!Oh yes, and your message asking if I can sing at the wedding, I got and yes very happy to do that for you. So if we meet again. And please take care of Lando, because I don't know yet what will become of us or if I will disappear from your life again. Please, if I am no longer there for him, find him a new girlfriend, because I don't want him to stay alone and I don't want him to hold on to me. Thank you Max for everything I look forward to seeing you again.
See you soon LG Lina

Letter to Lando:
Hey Lando, So where do you want me to start? You really saved me, even though we met in a very unique way. You were always there for me and the time we spent together was always very special. But unfortunately we both just broke everything and then I broke away from you. But not really, because even though I haven't contacted you for ages, you welcomed me with open arms every time and even in those short moments we had a lot of fun together. I ah e always felt so broken with you in those moments. Even though that was never a good idea, because after that my heart was always more broken. But I'm sure yours was too, because I lost you over and over again. I have to tell you something now: I miss you every day and wanted to throw everything away so many times and show you my real face, tell you why I just cut you out of my life, but it was not possible. Because I have made that everything only so that you are all safe. 

I don't have a clean slate and I'm not as you always think I am. But I will be able to tell you the whole story in person! And yes before I forget, if you really will read this letter, then here is one more thing! Behind the picture of us that is still on my desk are some passwords and addresses.Please use them and see for yourself what awaits you.I love you Lando forever no matter what.This may sound corny but you have stolen my heart. With love Lina

It was the middle of the night and I had finally finished the last letter. This one was the hardest for me, because it was for Lando and as I wrote the words, tears kept running down my cheek. Because I don't want to lose him and the others. Lando in particular. So one thing is clear to me now, if my plan will really work out, then I will kiss Lando in Imola and never let him go again.

When the alarm clock didn't let me sleep any more, it was clear to me that if I got up now, it would mean that it was my turn to race in an hour... And so it happened and I got on the gas of my beloved Mustang at the signal of Tim moving the start flag...