Mental Suicide - Original Poems

My Darling Phantom

My Darling Phantom,
You pace around the room like a spirit of lust.
Attachment, desire, erotic passion.
Only on myself I rely on and trust.

My Darling Phantom,
You make me feel as light as the wind of the October Sky.
Slowly making its way through the rest of Autumn.
As gentle as you, as Ambivalent as I.

My Darling Phantom
You seem to understand exactly what you do.
I'm crestfallen, tired, you hold my love ransom.
An overthought moment paints me blue.

My Darling Phantom.
You are why I'm fastidious.
Am I beautiful? What you desire? I'd die to make you proud.
It's hard to read what you think, you're so serious.

My Darling Phantom.
You let yourself live, each day is like the other.
I panic for time, are you still here?
I whelve deeply from you, a burning desire to be your lover.

My Darling Phantom.
You know so much about everything, but little about me.
The war in my mind, the illicit thoughts.
I ran around frantically searching for you on the day you were to take your leave.

My Darling Phantom.
You eventually made your depart to wherever you came from.
Is it heaven or hell? You're just like my mind, something I never had, yet still lost.
I don't know how to cope now you've gone.