Miss Peregrine's Home For Peculiar Children

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Did she have to leave, could I have done something different? Was it my fault this happened? Maybe it was a mistake being here.

That was all my mind came up with. Maybe it was a mistake here. Every time I passed that room in the night.
All I could think was I'm sorry.

Sleeping has been getting harder. Sleeping late to sleeping in. I stopped feeling hungry for a bit but when I needed to eat something, mostly in the night with a small meal.

But I feel awful, here I am complaining when our parents must felt more pain. Yet it's okay if I feel this way right?

At some point Horace stopped visiting for some time. I didn't seem to mind. I don't want them to see me look or act like this.

I stopped paying attention after a bit. Horace with Millard have been trying to get me to leave the house, and my room but I decline only leaving during loop reset.

After that incident, I started to avoid the living room. It reminds me too much of what happened.

Then after a bit, Abe left. He did leave with Emma's shattered heart. Enoch still sends me clay rabbits. I never name them Marella or Sunny. At some point, I gave my Journal to Horace.

Thinking that it reminds me of her, my writing about her. It's painful to have this for now. Right now my feelings are all over the place.

They might find out I had a small crush on one of the people from the village. If he even read it. He was shocked that I gave it to him. But if I said I wanted it back, he would give it back.

Days become months. Then months become years. Slowly yet never really getting over her death. Sadness was still there.

I lost track of time. It's hard to tell how long it's been.

Maybe I should leave. Yes, let's leave.
Leaving my room without those two scares me.
Would they still remember my past self? I should freshen up. Going outside hurts my eyes. So bringing an umbrella helps.
Then I left my room.

Horace was one of the first to see me outside in a long time. He was worried for me. I wondered what was the reason for me leaving. "y/n are you okay? Are you sick should I get Miss Peregrine or not?" It was nice to see him worry for me.

All I did was shake my head no. "Horace, may we hang out together?" My voice felt different. Sounds different too. I feel comfortable with him. After all, we are friends.

I'm glad, he agreed. We went around and hung out around the island. All we did was just talk and walk with hands together around the island. Everyone forgot who I was. "Hey, Horace can you tell me what happened lately," Horace told me everything.

Mostly everyone has been trying to continue with life.

Soon Millard looked like he was trying to find Horace but found someone else with him.

Millard pov
What was shocking was that they did not react to the clothes floating. Yet mostly looks out of it.

But the more they talked, the more Horace seemed happy. This is new, he always seems bothered by others a bit. But here he is smiling. It's nice to see that.

Reader pov
I try making little jokes or mention fashion. But no matter what I said Horace seems happy. Then in the corner of my eyes I noticed some clothes floating. I know who it is, so I decided to wave at them. "Hi Millard, nice to see you" I don't think Millard recognized its me. To me it makes sense on why he doesn't recognize me.

When Horace explain that I left the house Millard was happy. Soon he decided to catch me up to date on what he done. All I did was do a small smile. Now it just felt like it was how it was before the incident. But that was just something that my brain telling me, a lie.

When it got near dinner time
I decided to show up. Where I usually sat the high chair next to me was gone. Anything relate or toddler proof was gone. I felt their eyes on me. And their worry for me but not say anything out of place because of the way we are raised.

Making sure we are comfortable and safe. I understand but surely this can't be a way that she wants to raise us, right? After dinner time everyone had some question and I answer them before Miss Peregrine interrupted saying it's almost time for loop reset.

As all us were leaving, I got near the living room. I saw a quick glance and felt upset. But quickly trying to leave. Horace or Millard must notice, I don't pay attention and just hold on their sleeve. I wanted to hold their hand but we can't be close to people, I think?

We went through our normal practice and head inside but I want to stay outside for a bit longer. I still have not let go of this person sleeve until now. "Thank you for guild me outside the house" After hearing the voice apparently it was Enoch.

"It's fine. I understand that it's difficult for you. But we're all here. And it was hard for you to leave the house right?" Enoch sounds so sincerely. It felt odd but happy that I got to talk to him. "Enoch don't worry but I'm glad that you are talking to me" I did a smile smile then head back inside.

When I got near my room, I decided to visit her. When I open the door and look and her, my body was shaking. But the more I looked at her my heart felt bad. She looks like they woke her up? Soon I left, maybe next time get here early.

When I went to my desk, I was getting ready to write but then realize that my Journal is gone.
I forgot but a left a small note to get flowers