the daughter - damon

scared

David gasped, covering his face with his hands, hiding his ugly cries.
"Stop making me cry, you idiot", he was able to whisper.

He felt hands upon his, quivering at the physical contact, and kept silently sobbing.
"Stop crying David, it's okay, I'm here now."
"I don't- I don't deserve you... You're too- too good for- for me..."
"I can't let you say that."

Simon sat on the couch, next to David, and they didn't move, appreciating each other's light touch, before the author quietly asked :
"Si ?"
"Yes ?"
"Hug me."

It was Simon's turn to gasp.
"Really ?"
"Yeah..."
"You won't escape, promise me."
"I would have already done it."

The older man gently opened his arms, and David hurried to them. He missed his protective and loving embraces. He quietly cried on his ex-boyfriend's right shoulder. The silence was punctuated by Simon's 'It's okay, I'm here now...'.
"Si, I'm sorry."
"Don't be", he cupped his face, tenderly looking at him.
"I'm sorry to love you... I know I shouldn't. I know it's bad for me. But I love you."
"Shut up...", the older man closed the space between them, and delicately pressed his lips upon David's.

When they parted, not very far away though, the author burst out crying once more.
"Darling, stop, everything is over now..."
"Darling", a piercing cry escaped from the author's dry throat.

He couldn't handle this cuteness. Simon gently kissed his mouth several times, trying to calm him down.
"Shh... Darling, I-... I have a question."
"Go on..."

David clenched his teeth, in great apprehension.
"Can you smile for me ?"
"Oh...", he slowly tried stretching both sides of his mouth from ear to ear into a small grin.
"What did you think I was going to ask ?"
"Oh, you know...", his beam turned into a smirk.
"No, I wouldn't dare."
"Oh yes you would."
"Okay, maybe I would... But you're the smutty one here."
"Want a demonstration ?"
"No, you're tired."
"I'm not tired, my eyes are. They're exhausted to cry because I'm too happy."
"You're like a kid, darling. A little kid."
"Is it bad ?"
"No, it isn't. Come here...", he extended his arms.

He gave him another warm and soothing hug, whilst the author hummed Hope's favourite song, to comfort himself. He was still frightened by everything, and started randomly shaking, before slightly pushing Simon away.
"Darling, what's happening ?"
"I'm scared..."
"What are you scared of ?" he quietly asked, staying cautious about David's possible reactions.

As he wasn't answering, Simon became seriously worried. He delicately caressed the side of his face with his thumb, as though he was trying to erase the dried painful tears forever.
"It's okay sweetheart, take your time...", he affectionately kissed the tip of the author's nose.

David sighed at length, and when a quiet sob came out from his sore throat, he muttered :
"David Edward Walliams, stop fucking crying like a sodding baby. You're supposed to be a grownup. I'm insufferable, and I should go home, and leave you alone with Eric and-... and I'm fucking sorry to be that weak. I'm scared of everything. Of the smallest thing. I'm afraid of myself, of my foolishness, I'm afraid of you, of your fits of angers. I'm frightened by every single move I do, every single move you do. I'm frightened by everybody, it's horrible. Every time I need to talk to somebody, I shake like hell, I'm easily flustered. At the phone, I hear 'hello', it's the death of me. By messages, I see 'hello', I die inside. In real life, I can't stand social interaction anymore. And I don't know why. I totally ignore how this shit can be possible. Oh, yeah, and the only fact I'm appalled at literally anything terrifies me the most. I'm sorry, Si..."
"Don't be, darling..."
"I love you. I love you so much it hurts."
"You shouldn't be. I'm sorry for having fired you, I was- I was not in my normal state. You're hired again."
"You can't do anything without me, huh ?"
"Shut up, it's my turn to speak", Simon cutely smiled. "You're a big part of the show, and it's not the same without you. I missed you, as a comedian, as a judge, as my friend, as my boyfriend..."
"Boyfriend ?" David almost squealed.
"If you're okay with it, we haven't officially broken up, have we ?"
"I hope not."
"You're an important part on camera, but also off camera. You're important to me."
"Stop it, you're going to make me cry again."
"You get emotional easily, David."
"I just missed you."
"It's been only four days."
"More than four days."
"Yeah, four days and a half."
"That's a lot. It's a lot when you really love somebody. We've been together every single day for a whole year, and suddenly, overnight, we were separated. It was a huge shock for me."
"I could understand."
"Weren't you sad ? Or worried ?"
"Of course I was."
"I've been asking myself this question a lot."
"Which one, darling ?"
"Do you really love me ?"
"I-...", he lowered the head.
"I'll wait, take your time. I know how feelings can be confusing", the author lay down, and rested his head on Simon's lap.

The older man started drawing circles with his thumb round his ear and in his hair. When he slowly brushed his index and middle finger down David's neck, some goose pimples appeared on his skin. He laid a delicate kiss on his cheek, put his lips several times over his jawline, and down his neck, leaving wet traces and little hickeys everywhere.
"I can't sleep if you tease me like that", Simon heard a murmur below.
"Sorry", the older man groaned, a tiny bit frustrated.

No answer from David. He was soundly asleep. Simon cowardly took advantage of the author's slumber to whisper :
"It's hard for me to say 'I love you' when I really mean it, because I've said it enough, and every single time, the person dumped me. I thought you did, too. But I think I-... No, I'm sure I-..."

He abruptly stopped, thinking about the wording. It had to be perfect for him.
"Oh, and fuck it-... I love you, David Walliams..."
"Am I dreaming ?" he perceived a mumble.
"No, you aren't, darling."

a/n : hey yall !!!!
THAT WAS SO CUTE IM SCREAMING !!
(yes im sometimes that happy when i read my story, but i promise that it doesnt happen a lot dont worry)
thank you so so much for having read this chapter !!
have a fabulous morning/afternoon/evening/night
az :)

PS : its already part 40 (i cant believe it)