Forever and Always (R5)

9) Power and Control

But my opinion or text didn't matter because there I was standing on their door step the next day. I didn't want to be here and I'm sure none of them wanted me here either. I crossed my arms tightly against my chest. I let my messy hair fall wherever, resulting in covering my face partly. I couldn't be bothered combing it today, I just have to live with the puffiness of it. The only people who want me here are my parents, so they can get rid of me. I reach for the door bell. I leaned last time wandering around their neighbourhood, there was no where to go. There were just streets of houses and more houses miles each way. There was no where to go. As my finger releases from the button the sound of chimes go off inside the house. I could hear running and then a close sound of a lock unlocking. The door swings open to revel Ross. He grins at me but it quickly fades once he sees my expression.

"I'm guessing you don't want to be here" he sighs.

"Not my choice, they'll be back in a hour" I say. He nods and backs away from the door, letting me in. I walk inside and sit down one of the couches. He sits down beside me on the beat up couch. It was quite comfortable but I didn't get comfortable on it, instead sat down with my hands on my lap. I stare at Ross who had his elbow bent against the edge of the couch who had his hand supporting his head.

"I'm guessing your still mad at me but I just want you to know the video never aired" he says staring at the t.v but not watching it. I nod in response even though he couldn't see me. I didn't care if it aired or not. I cared that he fooled me, they guy I once thought was the most perfect person in the world.

"Where are the others?" I ask noticing how quiet the house was.

"They're out shopping, I was going to go to lunch with Colum but he cancelled" he explains still staring at the t.v. He looked tired and genually sorry but I don't think I could ever fully forgive him for what happened. I knew this was over reactive but It's the truth. His usual smile wasn't present on his face like he looks in interviews and photo shoots, but I guess he was acting in those. Instead in the place was a blank expression. I nod again and stare at the t.v with him.

"Things change, you know. People grow. They know their mistakes and they want to change them" he says inferring to the video.

"10 days seem like a long time" I say biting my lip not believing what I'm just said and where I'm going with this. I have to give him another chance, I have to.

"You read my texts?" he asked sounding a little shocked.

"Yeah I did last night" I admit staring at my old navy converse I was wearing. I could feel him staring at me but I couldn't change my decision now. "I know you must be busy and all but you can have one day" I sigh looking up at him seeing a cheeky grin quickly appear on his face. "You really seem happy about this?" I ask puzzled.

"I don't want anyone thinking we're-i'm bad" he says smiling like there was another reason, probably that he felt sorry for me. I forse a smile and stare back at the t.v trying to watch it but I kept glancing at Ross. He seemed more relaxed now, but still quite tired it was obvious in his dark eyes. He was cute, I don't think i'll ever think different of that. The way his puppy brown eyes glisten in the light and how the shirt perfectly clings on his toned torso.

"Hannah, I know you're staring at me" he smirks to himself not removing his glance from the t.v.

"I'm not" I say furrowing my eyebrows shaking my head quickly changing my glance to the t.v myself. I felt my cheeks go red with embarrassment, resulting in a burning sensation. I try and focus as hard as I could on the show but I couldn't. The show looked confusing and overly dramatic. I don't get shows like this, they're not realistic and the girl always ends up with the guy in the end anyway. I watch it though because I had at least another 40 minutes to go.