reunited again

time moves slow without you

It has been about 4 years since the night at the aquarium and about 3 since sherlock saw john properly they called everyone once in a blue blue moon as some sought of perfetic excuse of 'keeping in touch' but even that havnt took place in the past year and what john diddnt know is that sherlock was falling of the wagon and everyone around him could tell and this time his blogger wouldn't be there to save him

Sherlcok was in his kitchen well what was left of with the empty needles lying on the kitchen table to the morphine and coke scatterd around

He was just about to take his afternoon hit when there was a knock at the door "go away I don't want anymore tea" he snarled his hands trembling and clinging to the side

The door opened "good beacuse I wouldn't be making you any brother"
Mycroct called from the living room he was worried about sherlock he hasn't left the house in other 4 months and even before that when he did leave the house on the rare occasion that it was he would find him blacked out in an alley way or a homeless shelter he was getting worse, worse then he's ever been and nobody knew why

Sherlock came out of the kitchen trembling his eyes what was once filled with life was dull and strained he hasn't slept for days maybe weeks he lost count his curls was tangled and muddled up he hadn't even tried to look appealing. There was no point trying when there was nobody who would care you could see his countless needle injection on his arm when his Robe highered and he took steps towards the couch

"Jesus sherlock"mycroft breathed taking a large sigh soaking in his brothers appearance "what's happend to you?" Mycroft didn't show emotions to anyone but sherlock was different he felt like he had to protect him he was his little brother after all and strangley he wanted to and maybe Greg he sometimes showd emotions to him he was such an intriguing creature

"Why do you care"sherlock snarled as he led on the couch facing the total opisite way from his brother "beacuse
Your loss would break my heart"he went to sit down on sherlocks chair

"Don't sit there" sherlock growled ignoring his brothers comment though it made him smile just the smallest of smiles

"Well where else am I supposed to sit the other chair isn't here what happend to it?" Mycroct questiond guessing he'd have to settle for standing up

"I needed fire wood"sherlock lied it was a reminder of john one that played with his heart 24/7 and reminded him that he was gone that moved on with mary and the baby he just didn't care anymore "it's been years since anyone sat in it anyway" he stated with with hint of saddnes in his voice

Mycroct smiled halfy as he realised what was going on the reason for sherlock falling if the wagon harder then he ever had john watson "do you miss him?" Mycroft looked at sherlock expectantly

"Ofcorse not" sherlock huffed "missing somone is -"

"A sign of sentiment and sentiment is a chemical defect found on the loosing side yes yes sherlock I understand but you did let john in and you did get involved and that causes sentiment and now iohns not here is he what do you feel sherlock I wnay your honest answer"

The room filled with silence for a long minute until low sigh was heard just audible to the ears and ruffling for sherlcok to sit up to face to Mycroct before putting his head down to his knees embarrassment tingling in his body already and he havnt even opend his mouth "stupid sentiment"sherlock thought

Mycroct smiled slightly with an incorouging nod

Sherlock diddnt speak up for a minute afraid Mycroct would judge him and just simply say "I told you so" but sherlock did speak up to Mycrocts surprise after cleaing his throat

"I feel stupid I let him in I never let people in but then I feel guilty beacuse john diddnt do anything wrong he never has he's the only person who's never gave up on me who's seen through my facade of being this arrogant dick.no he didn't do anything wrong he just moved on with mary and had a kid but it makes me angry that after everything that's happend he doesn't even bother to stay in touch not even a quick call maybe he just couldn't wait to get away and finding mary and the baby was a wake up call?"sherlock let out a shaky inhale "I don't know what's wrong with and why am I being so weak" sherlock could feel his hands trembling on his knees with his eyes closed but not once did he look up to see his brothers face

"Sherlock..."Mycroct was unusually speechless he never once thought he would see his brother this vulnerable and nun the less pouring out to him he expected sherlock to tell him to leave when he asked him to open up and he really diddnt think on how to react

"I'm sorry" said a defeated sherlock "you should go I've rambled for enough I'm pathetic"sherlock was mental kicking himself for acting so weak and vulnerable he diddnt know what taken over him

"I think you should speak to him sherlock go and see him"

"No I couldn't he-"sherlock started

"Sherlock"mycroft said in a stern tone "go and see him"

"Ok"sherlock agreed to please his brother even though he knew he wouldn't john probably wouldn't want to see him right? Why else would they just loose contact so abruptly

"Ok brother if you need me call me and please don't put any more of them toxins in your body" he said in an emotionless tone but he felt almost to beg him

"Hmm" sherlock diddnt even try to hide the fact he was totally ignoring his brother now

Mycroct rolled his eyes walking out of his apartment he wasn't dumb he knew sherlock wouldn't go and see John watson so he knew exactly where he was going as he stepped into his black tinted car with a smirk on his face

AN// hey guys hope you like this chapter feel free to comment and talk and also feedback I love that I like to ingage with you like yo know what you would like to happen as it can help❤❤