Chemical Love (Craig Mabbitt Fanfic)

Chapter 25

*Anastasia's POV*

I unfolded the piece of paper that was spotted with blood. I took one glance and the tears came back. This wasn't what I expected at all...

'Anna,                                                              

I'm sorry, for everything that I've done. I don't know where you went I just hope to God that you're safe. I love you and I always have; even through everything I said to you. You're a beautiful girl and wish I didn't drink so much so I could watch you grow up and remember it. I wish I didn't drink that night you're mother died. I know that it was my fault that you're brother left, but I didn't realise until you left. I couldn't live with the guilt anymore and I wish I wasn't such a coward.

Please don't cry over me baby girl. I've done that too many times in your life. Just know that I regret everything and I'm sorry. Be strong and be happy. Just promise me one thing; don't do what I did. Don't make the mistakes I did. You're a smart girl and I'm proud of you. I'm sorry for all the pain...

-Dad xoxo'

I was sobbing uncontrollably by now making the letter wet with tears. Why did it have to end this way? I dropped to my knees again as Emily attempted to calm me down.

After a while I finally calmed down enough to stand up and Emily lead me to my car that I left here. On the way to the hotel I couldn't do anything but stare out the window. Now all that was left was the funeral...

*A few days later at the funeral*

I watched as my father was lowered into the ground. I wasn't crying anymore, I couldn't. The atmosphere was quiet; crying from the few people here was the only sound heard. Emily had her arms around me in a hug as she cried. I just stared blankly at the coffin.

Everyone looked up as a man ran into the cemetery dressed in an all-black suit. He slowed down and looked at the coffin with teary eyes. I let go of Emily and walked over to him cautiously. He looked at me with sadness and guilt.

'I-I'm sorry Anastasia,' he said and started to walk towards me but stopped when I took a step back.

'Alex...y-you left me...' tears formed once again for the hundredth time this week. 'Why did you leave me?!' I got angry suddenly at my brother.

'I'm sorry. I was a kid, I was scared and I panicked. I regret running away and I wish I stayed Anna-'

'Don't call me that! Only family can call me that! Brothers don't abandon their little sister with a drunken father!' I spat. Emily put her hands gently on my shoulders and pulled me away a little knowing fully I wanted to beat him right then and there. I glared at him with pure hatred and he backed down.

'I know. I'm a horrible brother and I wasn't there to protect you but please know I do, and always have, love and care about you. I kept tabs on you. I promised myself that if something bad happened to you that I would come back.' I calmed down a bit and relaxed.

'Why didn't you ever come back then? Bad things did happen. Bullying, my own father was always drunk. Why didn't you come back when all I felt was pain? Why did you come back now, it's too late to save me from that...'

'I never came back because I knew you were a strong girl. You always had been and I knew you could handle it. Then you disappeared. No one knew where you went nor did they know if you would ever be back. That's when I got worried; I didn't want you to do what I did. I came back to try and look for you but you were nowhere. Please, I'm not asking you to forgive me just believe me when I say that I have always cared about you.' I felt a pang of guilt run through me. I always hated him for leaving me in a broken home when he was always looking after me.

I ran over and hugged him tight. I missed my brother and this was what I wanted. After 13 years I finally had my big brother back.

'I forgive you,' I choked out through sobs. My cracking voice was muffled by his shoulder as he hugged me back tighter. 'I missed you bro,' I laughed.

'I missed you too sis,' he chuckled.

~Hey guys! I really wish I could've updated sooner but I've been stressed and busy and yeah...anyway vote, comment. I don't know how much longer this story will be but probably won't be much longer~