steve rogers imagines

pain

this is semi-angst semi fluff 

the next chapter will be 100% angst, requested by my shawty @hangeschild  <333

so enjoy this one for now and pls excuse it if it's horrible:,))

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it was just after midnight and you were waiting patiently on the couch, awaiting your boyfriend's arrival home. steve should be getting back from his mission anytime. you started to doze off when you heard your phone ding.

falcon-man: hey y/n, we just got back from the mission, steve's on the way home. watch out for the big baby, he's got a lot of injuries. good luck with him he was a pain in the ass on the way back

y/n: thanks for the heads up, glad y'all are back & safe :)

and as if on queue, the door unlocked and in limped steve. on crutches.

damn i guess sam was right- you thought to yourself

steve glanced over to you as you smiled softly. He sighed before going to walk upstairs.

"i'm sorry? you just came back from a month long mission and i don't even get a hello? also how the hell are you going to walk up those stairs by yourself?" you shouted, pointing out the obvious

he huffed, and hung his head down, still not saying a word as he attempted to walk up the staircase.

"okay mr.tough pants, cut the crap. you're clearly hurt, and suffering. just talk to me so i know how to help ya," you walked up to the stair he was on, wrapping an arm around his waist to help with balance.

"i- just uhm, help me get to the bathroom i guess, i need some help with my cuts and stuff.." he mumbled, but it was just clear enough for you to understand. you walked the rest of the way up in silence, trying to figure out in your mind what was causing him to act so weird.

once reaching the bathroom, you moved his crutches to the side so he could sit on the edge of the bathtub. now that you were in light, it was clear how injured he truly was. granted, it wasn't life threatening, or that bad you needed a hospital, but it was bad enough that you were truly shocked. steve rarely got injured! he's typically way too focused on his job to get hurt.

he stayed silent whilst you grabbed the alcohol and rags, fidgeting with his fingers. you knelt down in front of him, lifting his face so it met with yours.

"You know the deal, this is gonna sting," you chuckled, pouring some alcohol onto the rag before gently dabbing the cuts on his face. he hissed for a second due to the sting, but quickly went back to his "i'm so tough" demeanor. "so you gonna tell me what happened? or are you going to stay silent the rest of the night? hm?"

steve started to tremble, and you could see his eyes get all blurry, "i'm sorry, i-i just don't know what happened, i never get in-injured, i turned my for o-one second and he just-he just attacked me, i couldn't do any-anything.." he started to cry, and you moved the rag to the side so you could cup his face.

"aw steve.. why didn't you tell me in the first place?" you gently caressed his cheeks,

"i don't know the doll.. i just always feel that I have to live up to my name. there's this constant pressure following me, i mean what captain gets this injured?! i'm just such a failure.." his crying turned into fullon sobs as he removed his face from your hands and nuzzled into your neck.

"hey, hey steve, listen, you are not a failure, one little accident does not give you that title! it's okay to make mistakes, it's okay to get hurt once in while." you stroked his dirty-blonde hair, trying to calm him down

"you have nothing to prove, you're perfect just the way you are steve,"

"it doesn't feel like that.. i feel like i always have to prove how strong i am, and i feel like i can't ever show emotion.. like i said ''what leader gets distracted..." he wouldn't stop crying, and it was breaking your heart.

"i'll always be here to remind you how amazing you are steve. nobodies perfect, we know that, don't let those thoughts get into your head alright?"

"just hold me, please, i'm sorry for acting like a jerk.. i just need you right now.."

and with that you held him until his sobs stopped.

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welp that sucked sorry for no updates ndjshjd </3