Things in my head

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Why do I feel so broken.
My eyes are so heavy but I don't cry.
They say it's because I was never allowed to show or explain my emotions.
I never cry from sadness.
My only tears are ones of rage and distress, I don't think that's healthy.
But those aren't here now.
I feel broken. Perhaps I was made faulty, perhaps it's cause is my own fault.
I don't feel like I have any reasons to be broken, like my shattered soul is an insult to those who have suffered true pain.
I want so desperately to have a reason for my pain. To have something to explain the way I feel.
I'm so lost.
I feel so broken.
But I don't know why, so trying to stop it seams pointless.

9/1/22