Things in my head

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Why do I see so much violence in my own mind?
Tearing, clawing, shredding, ripping, pounding, my mind is consumed with self destruction in moments like these.
When I'm so overwhelmed with numb rage and anguish from the things around me. It fills my head, my body, and it feels like my core can't take any more.
So it tries to leave, I see it happening in my mind. Jagged spikes ripping through my back, or claws attached to my fingers shredding my skin and flesh, sometimes I even see my own skeleton snap and break it's way free from this thing that I am.
I'll see myself punching walls and breaking anything I can hold.
But I never move, never even twitch. It's only ever witnessed in my mind, and only ever known by myself.

17/1/22