For Fuck's Sake! (Mat Nicholls)

thirty

Gasping, I sat up quickly. I widened my eyes at my surroundings. I felt the ground beneath me. It felt similar to cotton candy and was crystal clean white. Trying to remember what the hell had happened, I stood up and took in what was around me. I saw other people, walking around and doing regular things. One odd thing was that everyone had halos and a pair of their own wings. I felt like I had gotten stabbed as I remember that Mat and I passed away. Where was I? Heaven?

"Nino?" I heard my name being called out.

I furrowed my eyebrows as I turned towards the sound. I widened my eyes at Oli, who was waving me over. I eagerly walked over to him. I embraced him immediately, still confused.

"Oli? What the fuck is going on?" I asked anxiously.

"This is where everyone comes after they pass" he told me.

I put two and two together and realized that everyone was probably here. Does that mean that Mat would be here too? My heart beat quickened as I followed Oli who was most likely taking me to everyone else. I tried to keep my sobs in as I caught glimpse of Mat, who was sat with everyone else and immersed in a conversation.

"Pickles?" I shouted as I froze at the sight of him.

His head cocked towards mine and his mouth dropped wide open. Without another second, he stood up and sprinted towards me. The tears began to flow out of my eyes as we collided with one another, finally reunited. I heard him being to sob, both of our bodies racking heavily with tears.

"I missed you so fucking much," he choked out, squeezing me tight.

We pulled away and I looked at him, not believing he was actually in front of me again.

"I love you so much," I rang out.

"I love you more."

He wiped my tears away and I smiled at him, ecstatic that I was able to feel his hands against mine once more. It didn't feel real for a moment. He tightened his grip on my my hands and we went back to everyone. I smiled and we all immediately jumped into a conversation, just like how we used to. I zoned out for a few moments. I felt Mat's hand on my thigh and I blushed.

Our promises were right. We would always be together, forever and always. The sun did move around us, and I would always be his babe as he would be mine. Maybe we could play our song later and dance like we used to. I knew we both had missed the feeling of being able to get up and dance. For fuck's sake, I will always be so in love with this guy.