Hey Sis,
I remember the good times
You helping me perfect the messy bun that I still wear every single day
Us jamming out in your Camry on the way to our next adventure
We sang every lyric at the top of our lungs
And the beef jerky and Diet Coke at every gas station stop along the way
I remember the scary times
The bad times
And the very strange times
Like when you asked me to hide the empty bottles in the garbage so your husband wouldn't see
I was too young
Too young to say something even though I knew it wasn't right
Or the time you overindulged on our family trip
I did not sleep a blink as I cleaned up after you so our mom wouldn't notice
I was a teenager by then
But still I was much too young
The next morning brought you a cheerful mom
A clean hotel room
And no memories of the night before
That same morning brought me uncontrollable anxiety
Crying in the shower
And so much anger
And sadness
And shame
I remember the embarrassing times
Like when I brought you to come wine tasting with my friends
You were the only one throwing back the tiny glasses of the wine
One after the other
Within in an hour you were wasted
Stumbling in the bushes
And somehow all of the stares fell to me
I was in college and still to young to know what to do
I still remember all of the good times, but when I think of you all I see are the others glaring right back at me
-Your Sister
