this summer is, different.

chapter 4

hi, only a couple more parts left... again this is a short story:)
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Olivia's Pov-

The ice cream was great. Well of course it was, icecream is amazing.

We decided to spend the day on the lake. We have Jacks boat to use, I love days that we spend on the lake. 

It's so peaceful, just me and my friends. Trees and small cottages all around us, My happiest moments are here.

We go to are spot at the end of the lake, no boats come here so we can swim wherever we want. I take off my shirt and shorts and jump in.

The lake is cold, it always is. The lower I go the colder it gets, once I hit the top it's warm. My vision goes back to normal and I see a Jack right in front of me.

I smile and he takes his hand and brushes the water droplet off my face. I blush and then go back under the water. Why is he doing this? I thought we were friends.

I get back up and see Dustin and Noah trying to i push eachother in the water, I laugh then look who is still beside me. Jack, the waves push us a little further from everyone.

We can only hear there voices in the distant. Then Jack speaks, "Your really pretty, you know that right" He says and i'm just in shock.

"Uh- I- Thank you" I smile, he swims close to me and then his hand touches mine.

"Go under with me, stay down there for 5 seconds" He puts both are hands together.

I close my eyes and go under, 5,4,3,2,1. I rise back up and his face is right infront on mine. Are noses are pretty much touching, that's when I feel his lips on mine.

He kissed, a sweet and innocent kiss. I pulled away and looked at him in shock. He laughed lightly and whispers "I've been wanting to do that for a long time"

I laugh, I'm speechless, seriously. The women is to stunned to speak. He kissed me? What the fuck.

"Let's swim back to the boat we are getting far" I say and he nods, still with a huge smile on his face.

Sophie is smirking at me. Fuck she knows she definitely saw, she didn't go swimming all the other boys are swimming playing football.

Jack goes over to them and I hop in the boat. "Soph, stop looking at me like that"

She laughs "How was that little kiss?"

"Good, shocked me but good" I blush

She pulls out her phone and shows me a picture, not any picture, Jack and I kissing. Oh my. I'm kinda happy she did.

"Uh woah, thanks?" I laugh and she tells me she will send it to me.
(Picture up top)

The boys come back, The sun is slowly falling. Me and Sophie tanned, the odd time i'm jump in the water because I was hot. We were laying on the boat taking in the last bits of sun when the boys start to laugh.

Assholes. Sophie looks at them and glares, "One of you assholes take a picture of us looking hot and shit." Dustin takes her phone and takes the picture.

The picture was cute, so I posted it with some others on instagram. (FOLLOW IT h8nnahh)

We all sit and the boat and look at eachother, I've been staying away from Jack. I feel embarrassed that we kissed but Im also so happy.

We all start talking about random stuff, Jacks eyes are on me but I am avoiding him. But i'm stupid so I looked at him. He did some stupid smirk and put his drink down. The boat has a front of it, we were all in the back. I need a minute so I went and sat in the front.

Fuck. I hate getting sad up here. It happens sometimes, that is what depression is. Comes and goes, sometimes worst others. Right now was just sadness. I should be happy, jack kissed me.

I always wonder why I am depressed and where this came from. I had an okay childhood, some traumatic things happen but it's not like I was abused or had addict parents. My parents fought a lot which was really hard. My dad has the worst temper so it's like walking on egg shells around him. I love my mom and dad. So sitting here i'm trying to figure out how the fuck i became so sad.

Anxiety and Depression. My anxiety is horrible seriously, you should see me when i'm stressed. It's like horrible, I can't breath. The worst is when I get panic attacks before presentations, and I get up there and try to talk but I can't breath.

I stare out into the lake, the sun slowly setting. Stuck in my thoughts, spaced out. This happens a lot, I space out all the time. Thinking about how much life can suck my thoughts get interrupted. Someone taps my shoulder, Jack.

"Hey, you good?" He asked his beautiful blue eyes filled with concern

"Yeah i'm good, thanks for asking." I give him a weak smile. "Look Liv if you didn't want me to kiss you, you can tell-"

I cut him off, "No no it's not that, that was fine," I blush "Just needed to come and think about stuff alone for a lil"

"Oh, Uh okay. I can leave" He starts to walk away "You don't have to, i'm done thinking." I laugh

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Tonight I was tired, my social battery had ran out. They had plans to play some board games tonight. I've been debating if I go or not.

I don't really want to see Jack, when he saw me thinking that deeply. I was embarrassed. Once I said I was done thinking we awkwardly sat in silence until Sophie came to the rescue.

Part of me is happy he kissed me, part of me is not. Why you might ask? Well he made things awkward, like so awkward.

I decided against going tonight, i need some good sleep. I didn't wanna text Jack so I told Sophie i'm not coming.

I sat on my phone for a good hour and then decided to take a hot shower. I had to be quiet because my cousins are sleeping.

I get back into my room and see a couple notifications on my phone.

'soph is typing'
'soph sent new chat
'soph sent new chat'

I quickly look at chat, and it says 'jack looks so sad, i think is cuz u didn't come. he is about to go to his room'. oh.

I feel bad but I was so tired, also this weekend it's his birthday. I don't know what to get him.

I lay in bed, my head on my soft pillow. Close my eyes and sleep.

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