Not Just The Boy Next Door( Niall Horan) #Watty's2015

No control

I can't contain this anymore things have gone to far. Everything is to much for me to handle now I've had enough. I can't keep crying myself to sleep in hope for Niall. There's really nothing for me to look forward to anymore.

I'm sick of going to the hospital and visit someone who once gave me hope but now doesn't have the ability to even lift a finger,

What is hope?

What's life?

What's this?

What I'm I feeling?

Will this end?

Many questions circle my head every morning I wake up. This is depressing I hate it. Why can't he just die already if he won't wake up?

"Allie honey" my mom walks in my room and watches as I lay on my bed.

"Yes mom." I sit up.

"Me and your father have been talking." She trails off. "We know how you feeling now and were wondering.if you will like to get out the house for a change." She grabbed my hand.

I nod, " yeah I guess."

"We can go down to our lake house."

Many years ago my grandfather bought a beautiful cabin down the lake couple miles away from our house and passed the house down to my father after he died. I only been there a couple times in my life.

"Okay I will pack then." I say she smiled and kissed my forehead before she left my room.

I walked swiftly to my closet and picked out a few outfits and threw them in the open suit case.

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Hours later we arrived at the cabin with my parents and my two siblings my brother Andrew brought along his friend.

"This place is cool." His friends says Andrew nods in agreement. I rolled my suit case into the house.

Same as we left it couple years back. But so long ago. I remember Ave was so young and I was only 13 that makes it four years ago wow.

"I miss this place." I half yell from the top of the stairs. My mom and dad chuckled in happiness.

"Where's my room?" ave asked walking up the stairs.

"Let me show .you" I grab her hand and walk her down the hall. We came to a brown Woden door.

"Here" I open the door. Her mouth dropped.

"Was this all yours wow." she exclaimed.

"Can't believe you don't remember." I raise my eyebrows as I throw a pillow at ave who now was lying on the bed.

"I was young" she pouts crossing her arms.

"Haha good excuse." I laugh placing my bags on the bed. The room was big and had two twin beds and many memories.

"Dinner will be ready in a few care to help Allie ." My mom says from downstairs.

"Coming." I say

"Yippie." Ave skipped her way out of the room.

I made my way downstairs into the kitchen. I helped my mom mash the potatoes and made gravy.

I looked out the window and saw Niall I quickly blinked and he was gine. I fell for it what a fool I am.

"You ok honey?" My mom asked placing a hand on my ahoulder. I put down the spoon and nodded holding a tear in.

"It's time to forget." She says.

"But how? I can't it's not me....he will make it."

"It's been almost a month and a week."

I nod , " Yeah but -"

"No buts it's family night alright it's time to freshen up I'm sure Niall will want that for you." She hugged me and went back to the stove and continued cooking.

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Mom made a great dinner my dad talked about it all night long. My brother and sister loved it so much too.

Now we were playing a game board we were playing monopoly, I kept winning.

" I win again aha." I laugh taking a sip of Pepsi.

"Not fair." My sister pouts.

" I win I win I win." I dance around the living room and sat In front of the fireplace.

"I miss the snow." I pout looking at the fire flames.

" Me too." Ave says sitting next to me.

I sighed loudly.

The rest of the night we watched a family movie all of us cuddled up in front if the tv.

Tonight was a great way to forget about everything I been through.

I still miss him though.