Denial

19th chapter

  I was sitting in the car,looking out of the window. Rain drops racing down the glass. A faint music played in the background, it took me a while to recognize that it was Adele 's skyfall. Beside me driving in total silence was Tom. I debated whether I should talk or not, I usually don't mind staying in complete silence, but it kinda felt disturbing.

My mind debating was cut off when Tom decided to talk first, like he was reading my mind and gave my debate a solution.

T:did you have fun tonight?
Y/n:i did, you?
T:yeah it was a very nice evening
Y/n:it really was. I haven't been to a party in forever
T:what are you talking about. We had a couple of parties in the previous days
Y/n:i meant a party that is not work related
T:you mean a more fun party
Y/n:exactly!!
T:i didn't know you hate those parties
Y/n:can you blame me? You have to stay sober, smile all time, have small talks about nothing but work, you can't dance unless it's classic dancing...
T:so you're ideal parties are when you end up drunk and dance with strangers on loud musics without talking
Y/n:i just like to be free, you know. I like to act like....myself
T:like you did at haz's party
Y/n:exactly
T:and you ended up drunk and talked about how you hate when I call you by your last name
Y/n:not fan of last part. Remind me not to get drunk when you're around
T:can't promise. I like drunk y/n
Y/n:really?
T:she says what sober y/n can't say
Y/n:sober y/n can say stuff
T:okay then, go ahead
Y/n:excuse me?
T:you said you can say stuff, i want you to tell me some stuff about me
Y/n:oh no thank you, I would appreciate keeping my job
T:if you're job's sake is based of your talk and opinion, I would've fired you the day you talked while drunk
Y/n:right
T:soo go ahead,unless you're too afraid to talk
Maybe we should get you drunk
Y/n:no thank you there is no need
You think for a few seconds
T:im waiting
Y/n:alright i have a question
T:shoot
Y/n:why you're always wearing a three piece?
T:it's more appropriate for work
Y/n:says who? Haz doesn't wear three piece everyday but his outfits are work appropriate, there is also Louis who have the best sense of fashion in my opinion, you guys can use some of his advices about clothing
T:yeah but I prefer wearing them
Y/n:i totally understand that. But you don't have to show up to work everyday like you're walking on the red carpet.Looking like a 5'8" person with a 6' ego
T:okay that's a bit harsh
Y/n:omg,im so sorry I got carried away. See told you that this is a bad idea, sometimes i can be brutally honest
T:no that's okay, thank you for being honest

After few moments of total silence
T:how is Gracie by the way?
Y/n:not good at all
T:understandable
Y/n:I've spent the whole morning trying to convince her to move in with me
T:why is that?
Y/n:well first of all, her neighborhood is shady, her appartement is so ridiculously small for that price which wasn't a problem but having a baby is a lot of expenses that I didn't want her to think about the rent and other stuff
T:that is so thoughtful of you
Y/n:and you can't leave a pregnant lady alone, she needs so much support, emotionally and physically. And I keep thinking what if something happens to her when she's alone, and can't ask for help
T:yeah that's true, what did she say?
Y/n:she obviously declined my offer,she said that she will tell her family tomorrow and ask for her mother or sister to travel and move in with her.
T:okay then,she Won't be alone and don't worry about the expenses, the company gives employees who are pregnant or have children monthly Grant besides their salary that should cover everything she needs
Y/n:really? That's great
T:yeah don't worry. She'll have our support her family's
Y/n:yeah....
T:what's wrong?
Y/n:what about haz? She will need his support more than anything
T:I tried talking to him but he shut me down
Y/n:I've always loved haz,i still do but...I've never thought that he would do such thing
T:look y/n,you're right,but try to see it from his side for a bit. It caught him off guard
Y/n:it didn't cross his mind while they were having sex without any protection?
T:can't blame him for that,nothing crosses your monde while having sex
You shoot him a deadly stare
T:look my point is,let's just leave him be for awhile,organize his thoughts he will be back in the right line. I promise
Y/n:i hope you're alright. And I hope it will be soon,before it's too late
T:me too

You feel Tom's hand on your thigh caressing it gently with his thumb,you breathing stops for a moment, when suddenly your phone starts ringing,you take it out of your bag to find an unknown number calling you,you answer it out of curiosity

Y/n:hello?
??:hey y/n,how are you?
Y/n:im..good, who is this?
??:yeah sorry,this is Aaron,from the hotel in LA
Y/n:ohh yeah,im so sorry Aaron, how are you?

The exact moment you say his name Tom takes his hand off of you

A:im good , so I called to inform you that I'm in New York
Y/n:really?when did you arrive?
A:this morning,I was going to call you but I had some shootings
Y/n:that's okay,i was also busy
A:so listen,are you free tomorrow evening?
Y/n:i am, my work finishes at 5pm usually
A:wanna have dinner together?
Y/n:umm yeah sure
A:can I pick you up at 7pm?
Y/n:yeah 7 sounds good
A:okay then see you tomorrow
Y/n:can't wait
A:good night
Y/n:good night

    You hang up then put your phone back in your bag
T:soo Aaron?
Y/n:the guy from the conference
T:yeah I know, he's in New York?
Y/n:yeah he landed this morning
T:really?
Y/n:yeah
T:are you meeting him?
Y/n:yeah tomorrow,for dinner
T:mhmmm

   You notice that the car stopped,you look up to find the building you live in. You stay silent for couple minutes
Y/n:so thank you for the drive
T:ohh yeah of course
Y/n:I'll see you tomorrow
T:yeah....at work
Y/n:at work...goodnight
T:goodnight y/n