Trail Of Broken Dreams [ONGOING]

Chapter 1: END OF MY FUTURE

Dear Sarah,

Here I am between my FUTURE and my END and all I can think of is the past 5 years I've hoped for this day.

The day is finally here and all I think of is the memories we shared and the mountain we climbed.

Just like every breakup, it always begins with "Is not you, Is me". Ours will be no exception, I was finally happy when you requited my love but I don't know if I have gotten used to my solitude, loneliness, and my darkness.

I just don't want to begin what I think I can't finish, I love you and I always will.

~ Khalid Alexander

Sarah saw this letter and all she could do is to logout.

I stared at my phone for hours, this will be probably the longest time I am doing this without touching or scrolling through my phone or even listening to my favorite music but NO, I'm just staring at the nonsense message I just type and send to Sarah and how she just log out after reading it make me realize I was completely a fool.

I stayed up all night reminiscing about the past 5 years not that this is the first time I'm staying up all night but the last time I stayed up was yesterday with every thought of how amazing Sarah is filled my mind and how we were chatting and arguing about what will be humanity if there is no mankind.

She said, "humanity and mankind are the same, that humans have humanity in us and that is what makes us humane but the purpose of mankind is to discover and unleash that side of us."

I replied telling her how humanity is not the same as mankind, although people will think they are synonymous but no they are different.

"Mankind is the zealous effort to do what pleases us and it sucks cos we don't consider the feeling of others. While humanity is the unconditional love for all mankind not segregation between one and another," I added.

She replied finally before going to bed, "you haven't experienced such love that what makes you hate mankind but we humans are mankind and that is what makes us special."

"I'm going to make sure I change your perspective toward everybody and make sure you realize there is someone out there who loves you," She added.

I stayed up all night staring at her messages and I couldn't agree less, the last time I felt cared about was a few years back when my mother died and my father who loved her was completely shut down to everything in the world including his children

I hated people since the incident. I recalled how some people who always despise us came to her funeral and start shedding crocodile tears.

Sarah and I normally chat and argue about many things but despite our argument, all I can see is how smart and clever she is.

Someday I begin to think of our FUTURE together, of how amazing we will be together and how we will share our knowledge together but I just ruined my future today with that silly message I typed.

I don't think I'm going to get attached to anyone else again. This will probably be my END.

But maybe this is the END of the beginning of my FUTURE.