Thundering Thoughts

That Boy

I am still not over you.
Just a little more, maybe a step or
   two—
Before I could say, I am finally
   happy on my own.
Maybe not as ecstatic as you are
   but I definitely walked a bit farther
   from where I fell down.

You are probably unaware of how
   much I bled.
Because there was never an "us",
   hence, how could a tear be shed?
What a pity; I fell for someone so
   temporary.
What a waste that I tried to hold on
   to the affinity that had always
   been blurry.

Again, I fell for a boy who wasn't
   man enough to know what he
   wants.
But I guess it is not your fault she
   fits you the way I can't.
I guess it is okay for you to keep
   your choices open, then choose
   the best bet.
I should be over this; it had been a
   decade less than eight.

I still wonder what was wrong with
   me.
Still entranced when something
   related to you two comes up, for
   me to see.
Yet, this is where it ends.
I might be burying them now yet
   thank you-for the moments you
   lent.

I am yet to let go of the reins.
But there are battles we are not
   meant to win,
There are people we shouldn't be
   with-
In order for us to live the life we are
   meant to lead.

We deserve better than this.