Thundering Thoughts

Antagonistic Protagonist

Act is free like an intoxicated man,
Threw the console; now felt like the
   controls aren't mine.
Yet whose are a man's deed but
   his?
Hence, I ran away from their eyes—

For eyes can see and thoughts can
   sprout.
I am afraid of the judge and the
   whispers from his mouth,
As I have inflicted harm but know
   no way out nor how to change.
I should be the protagonist of my
   own tale yet as I pondered upon
   reality—I am categorized under
   the antagonists' range.