My Comfy Place

Chapter 42

Tharn's POV

I really feel bad for all the people I've hurt these days, it's not that I don't want to interact with them but I just can't.

I don't know how I can stop it, I never had something like this but whenever someone talks to me or touches me I become stiff and break down.

Type always comforted me and told me that they all understand and want me to get better.

So he asked me if I could see a therapist, they can help me he said. So I agreed but only if he went with me. I know that I depend on him too much but he is the only person who can calm me down. With him around I feel safe and light.

So now we are getting ready for the first appointment, I'm a bit nervous but I know that it will be alright. I have my sweet boyfriend with me so nothing can go wrong.

We both got dressed and went down to eat some food,  we ate and did the dishes. After that we put on our shoes and left the house.

On the way I got nervous, because what do I need to tell? What will everyone think of me? Will I even be able to say everything?

I was struggling to breath and I couldn't stop overthinking. My vision was getting blurry because of my tears. I then felt a hand on my shoulder and knew that it was Type.

He helped me calm down, he made me follow his breathing pattern and then he hugged me to make me stop crying.

When he pulled away and looked into my eyes, he smiled and gave a light kiss to my cheek.

"It will be okay, I'm here beside you. Nothing can go wrong."

He said that and I nodded, he was right I shouldn't be afraid, he is here next to me. He will help me whenever I need it.

So once we arrived we got inside and were greeted with a women in her thirties. We greeted back and she said we could go into the room.

So we walked in and sat down on the chairs, the room had a big table and 3 seats, one behind and two before the table. There were also may books, I think its about the human body and brains.

We sat for 5 minutes when someone walked in, she greeted us and we greeted her back.

Hi, I'm Lana."
"Hi I'm Type and this is Tharn." Type said, I just waied at her.
"So what are you both here for?"
"Well, the problem is that Tharn recently had been through something and then he met with someone who had ruined his childhood,  so he can't talk to people or accept anyone to touch him or else he will have a breakdown. "
"Okay, can I ask how you two are related?"
"Oh, he's my boyfriend." Type said, I started blushing.
"Okay, it's good that you are here to support him."
"Yeah, he didn't want to come without me, but I would always be there for him."
"Thats good to know. So Tharn may I ask what happened that you became like this?"
"W-well t-there ..." I stuttered and closed my eyes, I breathed in deeply and felt Type's hand squeezing mine.
"So t-there was a classmate of me a-and he always had been m-mad at me. I never knew what I did w-wrong, but he would always b-bully me. But when I became friends with Type he stopped all of a sudden, b-but when he came to k-know that we were boyfriends he d-dragged me towards an empty c-classroom. I was shocked so I didn't have time to react. W-when inside he started s-shouying at me and h-he grabbed my h-hands, then he pulled open a c-closet door and started slamming it shut with m-my hands in-between."
"So he first bullied you, but when he came to know you were friends with you boyfriend he was friendly, then when he knew you two were together he went and hurted you?"
"Yeah." I said.
"Did anything else happen?"
"Well... When that happened I refused to go to school, but then Type's friends came to know he did that because he like Type. Then we came up with a little plan to get revenge but it didn't go as planned, we were acting like we broke up. He knew and the next day I walked into school he again grabbed me and dragged me somewhere. Then he started to het insult me, he caused me to have a panic attack and I blacked out. But before that happened I called a friend of Type, they both came to search for me and brought me to the hospital. Then Type knew something and called the police. He is now behind bars."
"Okay so that is the thing you've been through, now who was the person who made all of it break down?"
"Its my mom."
"Okay, would you like to tell me what happened with her?" I shook my head, I don't want to repeat everything what she said, it hurts too much.
"Okay but does your boyfriend know everything?"
"Y-yeah."
"Would you want him to tell me?"
I looked at him and nodded, he smiled and caressed my hand.
"Okay so Type can you tell me everything,  since the beginning. "
"Okay, so we knew each other since we were young, our dad's were best friends but we moved away. The contact was still strong, they were planning when to meet, but one day we never heard anything anymore. We asked Tharn's mother if something happened but she never answered. But I met Tharn again this year. I first didn't know that he was my childhood friend but he recognised my parents when I brought him to my house. Then we came to know everything.
So his dad died a week before Tharn's birthday, since then his mom has been treating Tharn badly. She said it was his fault that his dad died. She also said that he brings bad luck and that he is a devil in disguise. Also when his dad died his mom was pregnant, he has a sister but she treats him bad too. Ever since then he needed to do every chore in the house and he needed to keep up with his studies, he didn't have friends. Then when he came out as gay to his mom she was getting more angry. She would sometimes beat him, then on his 18th birthday he came home and his mom packed all his stuff and placed it outside. Since then he started working in a little cafe close by our university. That's where I met him.
Than last week we went to his dad's grave, we sat there talking to him and when we were about to go his mom came too. She saw us and threw insults at him. Since then he has stopped talking to others and whenever someone touches him he breaks down."
"Okay, that is a lot of information, but it's good you can here for help. No one should go through this."
"Okay, so what is gonna happen now?" Type asked.
"Well for now I want Tharn to work on communication, he should try to talk to people and talk. I will prepare some tips for the next appointment."
"Okay, so when is the next appointment?"
"How about Wednesday?"
"Yeah, we both don't have classes in the afternoon."
"Okay so I will see you both again in 4 days and Tharn you are a strong person. I've never met someone who have been through so much and only now had broken down. I also see that you have a lot of support from your boyfriend."
"Thanks." I said.

We said our goodbye and went back to the car.
We were driving for sometime talking about things and I then realised that we weren't on the way home.

"Type where are we going?"
"We are going to do something fun. This week has been hard for you so I thought to go somewhere to divert our minds."
"Really?" I asked while smiling wildly.
"How I missed that smile, but yes I really mean it and if I knew you would smiled like that I would have done it sooner."
"You are the best, do you know that?"
"I know but it's only for you."
"It better be."
"Getting jealous?"
"No possessive, because being jealous is of something you don't have. You are mine so I'm possessive."
"Oh such a smart boyfriend I have."
"Good that you know." We both laughed after that.

We then joked some more and after 30 minutes we parked somewhere.

We got out the car and walked hand in hand to the entrance of the zoo. This is the first time in a very long time I've been to the zoo.

"How did you know I wanted to go here?"
"Because you said it once while sleeping, so I wanted to go here with you when we had time."
"Really, did I talk about it in my sleep?"
"Yeah, you were saying how much you wanted to go there with me because it had been long and you wanted it to be a nice date because you said I deserve to go in dates. And things like that."
"That's so embarrassing, but true, you deserve to go on nice dates and it's even better that it is with me."
"You too deserve to go on dates and I'm happy that it's with you."
"Sweet but let's go inside."

He laughed and pulled me inside, we started walking around and took a lot of pictures. I always loved animals, they are so carefree. Sometimes I wish I was an animal but then I would've never met Type.

We walked around for hours, taking pictures, telling jokes, being lovey dovey.

It was a really nice day, after this whole week I felt refreshed, this is something I needed.

When it was getting dark we went to a little restaurant and ate something. It felt good to be outside and just be who I am.

We ate and went back home. Today was fun but exhausting. We saw his parents sitting in the living room. We went towards them and greeted them.

"Hey." Both Type said and I nodded.
"Hey, how was today?" His mom asked.
"Good, Tharn told her about Longh but then when he needed to talk about his mom he didn't want to so I told her. But at least he told her something himself, wich is good. The only thing he needs to work on now is talking with others."
"Really, that's good. Did she say anything else?" His mom. I took a deep breath and answered before Type could.
"S-she said that I w-was a strong p-person."

They all looked at me and smiled, I felt my heart best going faster, my breath got a bit faster but its fine.

"Its true Tharn, you are a really strong person." His dad said.
"Yeah, we would never have thought you've been through all that if you didn't tell us."
"See I told you that you are strong." Type said.
"T-thanks." I said and yawned.
"You must be tired, it had been an eventful day, let's go up and sleep." Type said and I just nodded.

He took my hand and went upstairs, we took of our clothes and Type dragged me to the shower. He started washing me and himself and he did so careful that I just fell asleep in the shower.

Type's POV

While showering, Tharn fell asleep. He must be so tired because of all the events that happened today.

So I just dried his body and put on some boxers for the both of us. I then lifted him up and walked to our bed, I placed him on the bed and turned of the lights.

I then got into the bed and pulled him to my chest, he nuzzled into me and slept silently.

Not long after I slept too.
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Sorry that I updated a bit late but there has been a lot going on with my family.

Not that there is someone sick, just some personal things.