1993- 1995 A jatp story

2- Break

(Alex)

I was walking slightly behind Luke, Reggie and Bobby. I've been arguing with myself since the start of first period. 

Luke is so hot.

No, he's just a friend.

But he's so hot.

No he's only my friend.

But what if we started dating?

It won't happen because...

Who said it can't?

"Alex are you still with us?" I feel Luke's warm hand grasp my shoulder but my brain doesn't register it. 

"Hmm...?" I finally register Luke's hand is on my shoulder and I step away. 

"Are you okay?" Luke looks worried as I nod. 

"I just have to grab something from my locker." I walk away from them. I don't even know why I'm like this. I reach my locker but sink to the ground. Why am I like this? He was trying to see if I was okay. Sometimes I hated being gay with a passion. I start to cry, thinking I've probably screwed up a potential friendship when Luke sits beside me. 

"Alex I'm sorry if I did something wrong I..."

"You didn't." I say but he doesn't hear me. 

"Did I do something wrong?" I shake my head. "Thank god... but then why are you upset?" 

"It's nothing."

"Alex come on. This obviously isn't nothing."

"Luke please. It's really nothing."

"Okay, but if you ever need to talk I'm here. Um... I'm gonna leave you alone..."

"No... can you stay?"

"Um... okay." He's blushing a little but I pretend not to notice it. "So... what do you do for fun?" 

"I... well I play the drums, I sing and I used to go out with my friends but I can't anymore." 

"Singing's pretty cool. As for musical instruments, well they're like my life."

"What do you play?"

"Electric and acoustic guitar. Me, Reg and Bobby practise together."

"Do you all play the same instrument?"

"No, well Bobby plays rhythm guitar and Reg plays bass. We practise our favourite rock songs together." 

"That sounds fun."

"It is. Maybe you could come practise with us."

"I... I'd love to but would Reggie and Bobby be okay with..?"

"Yah of course. We've always wanted a drummer."

"Okay then." Luke smiles and I can't help but smile too. 

"So any girls caught your eye yet?"

"Er- why?"

"I'm just wondering but you don't have to say." 

"I..." Should I tell Luke the truth? He should know if we're gonna be friends. "Luke can I tell you something." 

"yeah anything."

"I just... can you promise not to tell anyone?"

"Of course... unless you killed someone and then we might have a problem." I laugh.

"No thats not it. Um..." I take a deep breath. "I'm gay." 

(Luke's POV) 

So if he was gay...