Why don't you just listen to them? You know what they say is true...just admit it you really are worthless. Come on at least listen to yourself. You are so so stupid and argent. No one will ever love you. Everyone would be happier if you were gone. The only impact you have on people is the reason they tell you to go kill yourself so just listen to them alright everyone would be happier.
Shut up.......
What...
Just shut up! I slowly opened my eyes realizing I had began to yell.
I sat up on my bed as I began to look around. I finally put my headphones in and started listening to some music to try and blockout the voices. Every once in a while one would sneak in a word or two. Big eared freak!...Worthless!...Whore!...Slut!...
Then a song would come on marking me think of my crush. Next thing I know I can't stop crying no matter what. I just wish I could let out my true feelings or do something to get these stupid voices to go away. Well I don't know I.. I guess their not really all in my head sometimes I actually can hear specific voices from the people who said these things. At this point everyone is saying it so any voice fits.
I begin to look around my room randomly. Then I think wow they really think that they can keep people from killing themselves in a mental hospital. Literally anything can be used to kill someone. Even a child's toy. I then just lay back down in my bed and go to sleep for the night... normally without food. (Cause why would a pig need food... I mean look at me I'm fat. I don't need anything else or else I will just get bigger. I mean even my family tells me I'm fat. I've lost 11 pounds now and it's like I've gained 30. I don't know anymore.) I think before finally falling asleep.
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Just wanted to remind this is not a real story. Some parts may be inspired by real events but small parts are changed. Let me remind if you need help please reach out there are people who can help even if you don't think so. Also disclaimer there are mentions of suicide,emotional abuse, and mental illnesses. If these topics are not things you are willing to read about please do not continue.
I love each and everyone of you stay safe and healthy! -love author
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Novela JuvenilA 15 year old girl struggles whith finding her true self she identifies as Bi but is still questioning her pronouns. Her mom kind of accepts her but not really she is to afraid to even mention it to her dad because he's very homophobic. She question...
