{Hikaru P.O.V}
Yeah,I felt bad for not sitting next to Kaoru yesterday but what was I going to do? Move everyone around? That probably would have been better for him but, Haruhi probably moved everyone to sit by me. Maybe, nobody really knows about us yet.
Haruhi decided to show up at my manor this morning. Typically I wake up earlier then kaoru so i was already awake when she got there.
It's rare that she shows up in the morning,she sticks to evenings.
This scared me however,as we talked there was nothing to be scared over her voice always remains peaceful. She's not ignorant with any topic. I love her,she corrects me, i want that, i don't want to remain ignorant all of my life.
"I love you.." I say as she leans into my chest
"I..I love you too,idiot"
She replied, she always seemed hesitant with saying it back, seldom she would say she loved me first. I often pushed that aside.
"I came here this early because I have a lot to study,that will take up my evening and so..i came in the morning."
"Don't hurt your brain missy.~" This made sense,i leaned in and gave her a long kiss on the forehead.
She left, i started to think deeper of how hesitant she was. Of course she was on my mind this whole day. I eat my breakfast and she is in my head doing sexual fantasy that I am dreaming about. She makes me feel so sexual. I want her in that way but it is not just sex, it's love.
Kaoru walk in the room. His body sway back and forth like a drunk man. He has no balance when he wakes up. He stares at me then smiles. I do the same. Thankfully, he wasn't here when Haruhi was. I don't want anymore problems with them. I am not sure what is up with them. I want to ask but I don't want to start any unnecessary issues with no one expecially the only person who understands me. It's so weird how a person knows me better than I know myself. I know he feels the same way.
{Kaoru P.O.V}
What i did may shock a lot of people. I made my butler buy me a bunch of alcoholic beverages. I just need something to get me through tough times. I know it isn't smart but it made sense somehow. Oh it felt right at the moment. Forgiveness and being accepted right is what I need.
