{Kaoru P.O.V}
When I don't see Hikaru in the house, I figure that he went on a date with Haruhi. I'm bothered, but not as much as I normally am. The fact that Hikaru has spent more time with me lately, is calming. I am aware now that he won't be leaving me anytime soon. Soon I have to start learning to truly trust Haruhi. Don't get me wrong, for most things, I trust Haruhi with, but my brother? I don't know.
She's pretty but I am prettier. She dresses like a commoner. Maybe he only likes her for her personality. It's definitely not a bad thing but I am more lively than her. I'm tired of comparing myself to this girl.
She has his love to keep while I dread this moment forever. It wasn't just a little crush I had on my significant brother, I was in love. Unfortunately, at this time, he is in love with another person.
I never felt so confused. My teenage years are seriously not going as I planned. At this moment in my life it's what I think about 24/7. Hikaru amd Haruhi. I am so invest in their relationship, I forget about my own self which is pretty sad.
"I just need time to myself," I say laying down on my comfortable bed. "I would so want to have someone on this bed with me, keeping me company while they say nice things about me," I say after 5 minutes of hardcore thinking.
It's rather strange and somewhat horrendous that I need a man's attention to feel wanted. I never belong to a man and this point in my life I feel like I never will. Yes I am aware of my beauty and amazing personality, but at the end of the day, the only person who i want to share that with is giving his life to some girl.
It's hard in this life. Not all the money in the world can fix my slightly depressed self. All I could ever do now is drown on my sorrow and smile when I see him. Every love song makes me think of him. Everything could make me relate to my brother and our situation.
