fourtris

11_ what just happened????

A.n... so sorry for not updating...hope you enjoy...
Tris' p.o.v
I hug Tobias still not believed what just happened? Did he just proposed to me?? I can't believe it..... suddenly he stops hugging and starts....shaking me?
_ Tris! Honey....you need to wake up....Tris?
What is he saying? Why do I have to wake up? I mean....I'm not sleep....am I? Suddenly I feel my eyes drop open and I am face to faced with and worried Tobias... he is so close that I feel we are breading the same air.... feeling that stupid pain rising in me I back of a little and ask: what's wrong? When did I came here? Who brought me?
" who brought you?" He asks " no one.... I mean the last time I saw you after that....thing in the class you were walking here o your own. I mean where are you supposed to be?"
"Um.... you know the net...." I say. "Tobias if you're trying a joke....it's not funny"
"What joke?"  He asks surprised " honey...are you ok? Did you slamed your head into the door or something like that?" "What?" I say " no.... it's just...you didn't do that? At all?" "Uh....do what? exactly?"  He asks not knowing what am I talking about. " that whole thing over there....." I say. Now I'm the one who don't know what to say.....
"Uh.... if you mean the whole accident in the class with that initate...well...no I didn't do that...she forced me.....other than that I don't know what are you talking about. After the class I started following you to apologize but I ran into Uri who invited us for a larty at his place after that I came here as fast as I could but then I saw you were sleep and then I decided to wake you uo cause I tjought you need some time to get ready cause the party starts in an hour and half...."
I stiff as the truth washes all over me.... that was all a dream. All of it... the letter the apologie and...and the...the proposal.... why?....why should it be all a dream? " oh and by the way you were saying yes when you were sleep... what was that all about?" He asks. I feel the heat eushing toward my cheeks....." Uh....nothing...I mean I don't remember....oh....did you say the party starts in an hour and half? Then I should get ready..." I say and then run toward the bathroom closing the door behind me.... I take off my close and turn the hot water on....while I'm waiting for the water to get warm I look at myself in the mirror..... I am pale and small and also short.... I have no muscles and all..... I mean I'm not beautiful in anyway..... how could a person , perfect like Tobias, even like me? Let's not talk about the whole marriage part...and that stupid fear makes it all worse.... I mean what boy doesn't want it ..? I'm sure...he is going to leave me..... he is going to leave me for that whole Sophie girl. She is beautiful and long and..... I'm sure he will be happiwr with her.... suddenly I start crying....I can't hold myself...the idea is so bad.... and suddenly I hear Tobias knocks on the door "Tris...honey....are you okay?" I don't answer him.... I'm not in the mood... the only thing I can do right niw is to sit and cry.... suddenly I feel the door opens... I know it's Tobias and the only idea in my mind is that he is entering the shower and I'm naked.... so I just jump and grab a towel and before I can put it completely around me he is in. He sees me and notices that the only thing that I'm wearing is a towel which I'm not actually wearing it.... I'm just holding it around my bode and it's loose... he comes a little more forward but not to much probably trying not to scare me.
"Tris...what's wrong...I'm sorry I came in...it's just I heard you crying and you wouldn't answee me so I thought maybe there's something wrong....I'm so sorry...what's wrong? Why are you crying?"
"It's just.... it's just.... why do you like me? What is it that you see in me" I ask " Tris... what do you mean?"
" I mean....I'm not beautiful...I'm not even pretty....look at me.... I'm shirt and thin and small....I'm flat-chested and my nose is to big although I'm seventeen I look like a twelve years old kid.... what do you see in me.... I know you don't see anything.... I know that you like her more than me...that you will leave me for her...go.... you will be happier with her.... at least she is probably not afraid of it..." by now I'm crying hysterically. Tobias looks hurted.... I know I have hurt him bad...but I couldn't stop myself. He come forward and hugs me tight.... but not that tight to make the towel fall. "Tris you are kind and brave.... you are selfless and sweet and most of all you are the most beautiful person I've ever seen in my life. I want yoy to know that I will never ever leave you alone for other girls not even if everyone one thinks that she is gorgeous cause my eyes can see only one person... you." Oh he is so sweet. "And I don't thinks it's a bad thing.... your fear I mean.... you know I will never push you to anything you don't want to do... I love you kusf the way you are"
"I....I...l...lo..love you to Tobias..."
The he brushes my lips by his. I stand on my tiptoes and kiss him back.... his ands still around me I bring up my hands to put then on his neck but just as I brought them up I remember the towel and realize tgat it has fall.... I feel my cheeks getting red... I broke the kiss....Tobias looks me in the eye...probably thinking that he has done something wrong.....but then he looms down and sees the towel on the ground...I can feel that I'm purple by now...."uh...um...I... I'm sorry...j..." he says while looking up at the roof scratching his neck...his cheeks as red as mine.... I seat and grab the towel and put it around me...."sorry..." he says again.... " It's...it's okay..." " I will...um...leave you alone so you can have your shower...cause you know the party starts in an hour"....and then his gone.... I look at myself in the mirror again but this time more sure of myself knoqing that he loves me.... and then I jump under the hot water....
A.N was it good???