Lost and Found

34. Face the Reality

Rudrayani's point of view

As soon as the constable opened the door of the jail, I barged into the lockup and hugged my pa. Finally i met my pa. I really missed him. I was so scared to be all alone without him. This world seemed so dangerous without him around me.

Till now I had to hold my tears back. But now that I am with my pa I am so relieved.

Now i can let my tears go. And I started crying, not caring constables were looking at me. Soon I was a sobbing mess. I kept crying till I couldn't breathe properly. Pa just kept patting my head to console me.

After a while, i stooped crying. I looked up to my pa and said,
"Don't worry pa, I will get you out of here. These people think that you are some seasoned criminal and you kidnapped me. But I will clear every misunderstanding.

I am so sorry pa. This is all my fault. Beacuse of me, you had to bear a tag of a criminal. But I know you're innocent. Please forgive your ishqi."

I was so ashamed of myself, I couldn't look up to my father. I kept staring the floor. I could not believe that my stupidity would cause such a pain to my father.

"No beta, you are not the one who should say sorry....I am sorry.... They are right beta. I am a criminal. I .. I had committed a lot of crimes before you came in my life."

Hearing these words from pa, I was shocked. I couldn't process what he just said. But before I really understand what he said, another thunder hit me, as he took a deep breath and further said closing his eyes,

"I am sorry Yuvrani Rudrayani devi for kidnapping you. I was blinded by anger and... . I ... I ..."

I didn't want to believe what I just heard. I was so shocked that I felt my throat contracting at my unsheded tears.

I just hugged my pa as tight as possible. As if it's was a nightmare and I was wishing it to end as soon as possible.

"Pa ... please... i know these people must have forced you to say this thing to me. I know these people are evil. But please... Please stop this. I can't bear any of this thing now.

we already have gone through so much. Please lets just stop this kidnapping craziness right here ...

we will go to new city, new people ; where no one will recognize us. We can live peacefully there. Now I promise will never in my life talk to strangers....I will..."

I was so dumbfounded that I kept on blabbering till pa pushed me away from him. I fell on the floor. Before I could again hug him, he stood up angrily and said,

"Are you stupid! Wake up... I am your kidnapper. And you are not my daughter or my ishqi. You were never my daughter... you are Yuvrani of a kingdom. You are rudrayani ratan raval sisodia... you belong to sisodia royal family, you belong to devgiri riyasat. Do you understand? "

This anguish, this heartache.. this was getting too much for me.... involuntarily my hands balled up into fists. The glass pieces that had earlier pierced in my hand started to cut my hand more deeply. More blood started to ozze out of my hand. The blood started to pool on floor around my hand.

My father, my pa ... was not even looking at me. I winced in pain not from my cut in hand but from the pain that my heart was feeling.

He just glanced at me. I could see his hard expressions. That for the first time in my life I was seeing my pa with blank eyes without any softness for me .... but as soon as he saw my blood on floor he broke down in tears.

He dropped his knees and hugged me tight. But I couldn't hug him back. I kept my hand on my knees. The blood from my hand started to stain my dress in crimson ..... but could feel his body tremble with his cries.