My Feelings

Bloom

I guess you could call me a flower. I was planted here. On this earth.

Like a flower you must grow. Needing sunshine and water to survive. But I've given that up. Which results in my family threatening to put me away.

It's hard trying to grow in a garden full of nasty bugs and weeds. The bugs eating me. They way my family neglects me is like that.

Why can't I grow like normal? A little seed needs to be able to grow into a beautiful flower. But with all the sh!t I've been through I'm surprised I'm still breathing.

One of these days I'm going to just explode, in hopes of destroying all of this pain and suffering I have been put through. But don't worry about me...

I'll try surviving on my own. Shinning my own sunshine, refilling the little pond next to me with water that will slowly leak into my roots to make me grow. I will fight off those bugs that try to stop me from growing.

When I'm outside in my little "paradise", I don't have anything to do but wonder. Wonder what it would be like if I were to be a beautifully grown flower, swaying as the light breeze blew, listening to the birds chirping, and the sound of the happy humans around me.

I'm nothing but a lonely little seed, who so badly wants to just give up on trying to be a flower like all her friends.

A/N: So one day I was waiting outside for my grandma to get in the car and I saw that really pretty flower in the picture up there^. I took that picture. The flower inspired me to write this. I know it's a little stupid but I was feeling like a sad and lonely little seed that day. Btw all of these "stories" are 100% TRUE SH!T!!!!!! Anyways I wrote this.
IM SO FREAKING DEPRESSED AND NOBODY EVEN CARES ANYMORE!