CORPSE | one - shots

No. 24 | Hurts 2 Hate Somebody

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"I'd literally rather feel nothing than this right now."

I said to myself as I sat on the roof of my apartment complex.

"I wish I could forgive and forget." I continued to complain.

I knew no one was listening but it was a nice thought that, maybe, someone would magically appear and help me think straight.

"Hey, are you- Y/n? What are you doing up here so late?" A familiar voice called out from behind me.

I turned around and saw the one person I didn't want to see right now.... Or ever again. Anyone in the entire universe would've been better than this cunt.

"Nothing. Goodnight." I said and turned back around to face the city instead of the asshole behind me.

I heard footsteps inch closer and closer to me until they eventually stopped, and I could see their black pants out of the corner of my eye.

I let out a deep sigh and went to stand up, but they put their hand on my shoulder, forcing me to stay seated, "I wanna talk to you for a little bit. If you'd be so kind to let me, of course?"

I rolled my eyes and waited for him to take a seat beside me to join in on looking out at the beautiful city of San Diego at midnight.

"It's almost as pretty as you." He teased.

Doesn't he... it's not even worth a second thought.

I couldn't help but roll my eyes and go to stand up again, but he stopped me once more, "I'm just teasing. Lighten up for me, Y/n."

I don't know why but hearing him have the audacity to even think about telling me to, 'lighten up' was absolutely infuriating.

I would've punched him dead in between his eyes but I knew ignoring his idiotic comment would make this situation 10 times better.

"If you don't mind me asking, why haven't you been hanging out with our lovely friends lately? We've all been worried, but especially Jesse-"

The second her said their name, I almost went ballistic. Jesse didn't miss me. Jesse would much rather me be 6 feet under her own home then see me ever again.

"I'm not apart of that friend group." I said in a monotoned voice.

He widened his eyes and a wave of fear washed over his face, "Why? Jesse loves it when you're around. They would be so upset to hear this.." He said the last part mostly to himself rather than to me.

'The same Jesse that knew I loved you and still went out with you even after the both of you know? That one? The one that likes to rub their relationship with you in my face? The one who used to be my literal best friend?'

I shrugged my shoulders and stood up from where I was seated, fighting my way through his attempts at making me stay seated.

He sighed, "Hey, don't be like that, Y/n-"

"Leave me alone." I muttered as I started to walk away from him and back into the dark building.

I walked down the flight of stairs that led to the roof and all the way down the hallway to my apartment.

The jangle of my keys filled the void of the vacant floor until I reached the outside of my door and heard the quiet static of a tv.

I struggled to find the correct key to my apartment but once I did I shoved it into the keyhole and stepped inside.

I shut the door and laid my keys on the kitchen island so I could begin to relax for a little while.

"Of course that bitch had to show up at my safe space. He knows I go up there every night around this time to be by myself." I muttered with a roll of my eyes.

I walked to my bathroom and turned my shower on and took all of my clothes off as I waited for the water to hear up.

I shivered as the cold air continued to hit my skin and I did a small dance to try and warm up.

Deciding that I couldn't bare the cold any longer, I stepped inside of the shower. To my surprise it was warm.

A shiver went through my body as it started to heat up. I let out a satisfied sigh and smiled to myself.

I reached over on the ledge of my shower to grab my phone and I started playing music.

"I'm so glad I decided to install these led lights in here." I said to myself while looking up at the soft purple lighting.

After about 45 minutes of concerts, I stepped out of the shower and dried my body off.

I pulled a soft black robe over my body before the cold could attack me again and I smiled to myself.

"It really is the little things."

I was about halfway through my skincare routine when my stomach let out a loud grumble.

I put my hand on it to soothe the anger and tried to remember when the last time I had ate was.

"Come to think of it, I don't think I've ate all day.... I've got to start setting reminders for this shit."

As I finished up my skincare, I yelled at myself for being so forgetful and not taking efficient care of myself.

I walked out of my bathroom and into my kitchen where I was met with my best friend Eren drinking a glass of wine while looking into the fridge.

He had his body leaned up against the island and had one arm supporting his upper body weight while he took a few sips from the glass.

He turned to look at where the sudden noise was coming from and smiled when he saw me, "Hey there." He said.

He sat the glass down and closed the fridge. I watched in a state of awe as he walked closer to me with the same smile on his face from before.

He stood in front of me and looked down on my figure for a few seconds before engulfing me in a tight hug.

"What's the matter, babe?" He asked while continuing to hug me.

I loosened up the hug enough so I could look at his face, "I talked to corpse while I was on the roof."

He widened his eyes and tightened the hug again, "I'm sorry, Y/n."

He let go of me and looked at my face for a few seconds, "Do you mind telling me what he was talking to you about?" Eren asked me.

I shook my head and allowed myself to begin crying.

I hadn't really cried in a while and now that I was letting myself everything began coming full surface.

I couldn't help but let myself go and fall back into Eren's arms and just relax as I cried.

He waited patiently and comforted me as best as he could.

It really hurts to hate somebody.

Hi! I'm sorry this took so long to publish! I've been having writers block lately so I do apologize for that!

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