Vanilla |Woosan

one month

Wooyoung
Loud music and the smell of sweat and alcoholic drinks filled the air almost making me feel sick to my stomach.

A month has passed since I said goodbye to- San. It even hurt me to say his name loud in my head.

I wasn't able to live on normally. I didn't expect my heartbreak to last that long. But that only showed me that San wasn't just a crush I had or an idol I was falling for. He was my soulmate.

"Down for another drink?" Yeosang asked me. His voice was already husky because we had to scream at each other in order to fully understand what the other said.

I nodded and followed Yeosang to the bar. These last weeks, Yeosang was a good friend. I appreciated how much he tried to cheer me up. But somehow life just wasn't the same anymore.

I felt like a young woman of a romantic drama that now had to find herself. I wasn't ready to already find myself.

Gladly, the bar was far away from the dance floor which was the reason why it was easier to understand each other.

"How do you feel today?" Yeosang asked me politely even though one was able to tell that he already drank a lot. "I am fine" I mumbled back almost falling onto him because someone ran into me.

Yeosang managed to hold me tightly. But he didn't loose his grip after he caught me. "I am glad to hear that. Did you call him or something?" the male asked further questions.

I only sighted. "No, we decided to not contact each other. It wouldn't work out. I'd just miss him too much" I answered and took a big sip of my drink. The male nodded. 

"You know what? I am glad I got you back. You used to spend so much time with him" Yeosang admitted. I shared simple smile with him.

Even though Yeosang and I had a great time together, I was curious about what San did that time. It was weird to not contact him nor spend time with him.

Szenarios of him dating another guy or another girl always ran through my head. Another country also meant another life. He'd meet so many new people-

"Tell me what you're thinking, woo. Why don't you finally spend time with someone who really cares about you?" Yeosang interrupted my thoughts. I furrowed my eyebrows a little bit because I knew that he meant himself by saying that.

"Who said San didn't care about me?" I replied a little bit more harshly than I actually wanted. Yeosang only smirked a little bit. I knew that he was about to say something that'd hurt me.

"I wouldn't have left you, Wooyoung. It seemed like he had more than enough money. Why would he need to leave Seoul so badly?" he answered.

That moment, my heart shattered into many pieces because maybe he was right. And even though I knew that San really liked me, I somehow believed Yeosang a little bit, which I shouldn't have done.

"Wooyoung, let me finally treat you the way you should be treated. Did that guy made you happy? No" he started going on. Even though Yeosang was somebody that didn't talk much, this seemed to interest him.

"I-I need to leave" I said in a rush.