Vanilla |Woosan

saying goodbye

Wooyoung
"San..I think I need to go home now. This probably hurts me more than you but I can't do this anymore" I said with tears in my eyes. San nodded and hugged me tightly.

"You're wrong, this hurts me more than you" he whispered into my ear with his godlike husky voice. His lips touched my ear a little, making my stomach tickle.

"I'll drive you home" he said and got up. I've never seen San sad before. It was weird to see him like that. He was a calm and quiet person. But now he was even more quiet, which made me feel guilty.

"Thank you" I mumbled and got up too. We left the loft. Suddenly he turned around and looked at me. "Wooyoung" he said my name. "Yeah?" I answered.

"I respect your decision but I just want you to know that you can...move in, if you want to" he said. His tone was serious. I got goosebumps.

I've never expected him to ask me to move in. "Thank you very much. But I guess I need to clarify things at home. It's for the family, you know" I answered and kissed his cheek softly.

We got into San's car whereupon the male started the engine. "You got my number, I want you to tell me, if something happens" San said whereas he put his hand on my thigh.

"Yes, I will" I replied.

We stayed quiet for the rest of the ride but it was a good silence. I enjoyed the touch of his hand on my thigh and San seemed to think about everything.

I didn't know what he was thinking about but he was even more quiet than usual, so I knew that it somehow was about us.

Our relationship was absurd and I knew that. It wasn't usual to act like a couple even though we weren't one. But we knew that we liked each other. And that was the only thing that mattered.

If someone would've told me that I'd fall in love with this man, I'd probably laughed at that person. But now it was reality.

My feelings were real and his feelings were too. And somehow this car ride felt like a goodbye. A trip back to reality were I can't be with San. A trip back to the past that forced me to forget everything that happened between him and me.

When I'd leave his car for the last time, he didn't exist anymore.