crushing

overthinking

The overthinking

It's a subject,

I wish it didn't exist

Like many people do

It's the overwhelming voice,

At night when you try to sleep,

For the first time in weeks you want to sleep

But then the overthinking starts

Your own voice telling you things that aren't true,

But you believe them so bad

They don't like me,

They don't want me,

You should stop,

Just stop it all

I listen to that voice, always

But most of the time never do what it says,

But I listen and that's the part what is hurting most

I hurt because of that voice

Its telling me my closest people don't want me,

And i believe and keep distance

to just check if the voice is right

And it's not

but what happens if you don't check it, but keep thinking it

and keep thinking and thinking,

and then you listen again and the voice tells you another thing 

and you start thinking again

and over, and over again