Indian Arrange marriage Proposal

part5

Well.. until i finished my college.. i was firm with my decision of not getting married.. ( reasons... As i mentioned earlier.. were so many.. like.. my wrong perception towards all guys.. which was "all guys are same.. they don't respect women.. no one is happy after marriage.." and about physical requirements..,,,
well.. to be honest.. until i finished my third year of college.. i didn't have full knowledge of all this adult stuff 😂.. some may think it as fool.. but it's not like that.. our upbringing was in such a way that we were never allowed to talk with a guy.... And in college.. i had choice to talk to guys but there.. situation was different.. so i never had any connection with guys.. neither any of my female friend had a boyfriend.. and we all were too shy to ever talk about all this stuff..
So... I was not ready to marry.. now.. with my decision of not getting married.. i finished my college.. my dad earlier asked me to get married but i firmly denied.. so he was not forcing me.. but then.. i started thinking my future.. what will i do my whole life.. how i want to live my life.. now the problem begin to start..
Let me tell you how??..
First thing was.. now as I finished my college.. i need to start earning.. i can't rely on my dad's money.. but for that.. i need to do job.. but the problem was my dad was not ready to send me anywhere saying.. you are a girl.. we can't let you stay alone anywhere..
I was living in village.. to find a job in my field.. or doing anything was not possible in village.. i didn't wanted to stay with my parents forever.. because they were conservative.. in country like India.. and especially in society where i lived.. it was nearly impossible for a girl to live alone.. other problems of living single was society.. they will not let me live in peace.. safety problem was also there.. if you are single.. people will see you with different eyes.. i started thinking about both sides of getting married and staying single.. i thought let me think about it in deep and then i will decide which one to choose.. i think a lot and then finally.. I came to conclusion that living single life in country like India.. is also full of many disadvantages.. getting married is also full of disadvantages.. but what if I get a good partner.. then???...( when i started thinking about pros and cons of these both thing.. i saw that not every guy is bad.. guys are good too.. they too have heart.... The reason for this changed attitude was social media ( which i started using after finishing my college)... On social media.. i came to know many good guys.. i saw many good stories on Facebook in which guys were taking care of their GF or wife.. how forward thinking guys had towards women..) so i thought let me try it once.. if i get good partner then its fine.. if i don't succeed.. in my marriage..,, then i can choose to stay single for the rest of my life... so this is how i decided to be ready for marrying. And then.. once i gave green signal for marriage.. my dad was in so hurry to get me married.. ( he doesn't have thing called "patience" in his life 😕).. and now.. you guys must be thinking.. that.. " okay! We understand your reasons through which you got ready to marry.. but why arrange????.."..
Well the answer is here,,,
Yes..that's right that I was against of getting married arrange.. because it's about whole life.. what if your partner doesn't match with you??... There is something called " type".. what if he is not my type??.. yes all the things are right.. but the problem for me was..i was already 24 year old ( in my society..you should get married by that age..)..and in place where i lived..how would I be able to get a guy???.. to go out of the house.. was not allowed to me.. then how would I find a guy now???....and the other big problem was..i can't trust anyone that easily..i need time to know someone and fall in love with him..and as i gave green signal to my dad..for marriage..i knew that my dad will get me married in no time.. so with all this problem..i had no choice but to get married arrange ☹️...
These were the reasons why I was going for getting married arrange ( though i was scared of it) .. but these things were not the case for the guy!!!.. he was living in Australia.. then why he is choosing to get married arrange???.. over there in Australia.. he had plenty of opportunities... No restrictions of family.. he can find girl so easily.. then why??? why?? Why??
This thought was killing me.. because it made me started thinking that... " Does this guy have no interest in love??.." is he kind of only business person??.. ..( when I asked him what he wants from a girl.. including smart and understanding..his one thing was "business" too..,he did say that..i want a girl who help me with my business☹️🙃... When he said this.. i thought this guy just want a business partner......
So..now wait for next part in which i will tell his anwer for my question ( why you getting married arrange??)..