FakeKouji

𝓢1𝓒2:𝓓𝓮𝓼𝓲𝓻𝓮 𝓽𝓸 𝓶𝓪𝓼𝓴

S1C2: Desire to mask

Ayanokouji's POV

I got down from the bus to see ANHS in it's full glory. It has many speculated advantages which made me shortlist it but the main focus was isolation from the world and to me the devil himself.

As I walked with slight anticipation of living a peaceful life in this abode, I was bothered by a beautiful yet aggravated being. She stared at me with glaring scarlet eyes. I could feel a sense of anger and disgust emanating from her as she asked, " Hey! Why were you staring at me on the bus?"

I could ignore her and end this dilemma of bothering this creature, but I decided to humour myself. With a slight smirk carving it's way on my face, which I was trained to mimic, "Ohh! I am so sorry, I was just entranced by your elegance with a bit of curiosity about your reasoning to not give up your seat."

 I could detect a faint pink on her cheeks immediately dispersed by a look of indignation and entitlement, "I feel no obligation to give up my seat, on the other hand, why didn't you give up your seat Mr Pervert?" She spoke ending with a stinging insult as a cherry on top.

If I had emotions, I would have rebutted that comment. I remember my past hatred towards perverts who let things like rampant hormones control their lives; regardless I didn't comment on that. Without trying to stir the pot which will increase this pointless argument, I replied with a fake grin, "Oh I hadn't done so since I partially agreed with the other boy's comment, after all, everyone has different sets of ideals, don't they?. Would you mind sharing that book's name though which you were reading?"

She looked at me with slight curiosity and dilemma," Alright, that's fair I suppose and the book is called Crime and Punishment but I suppose a person like you hasn't heard of it."She smirked at the end quite condescendingly. I had read that book in the White room to try and formulate reasoning for the elimination of students in the white room, it provided me solace when I did have many emotions.

Of course, telling her the truth would cause problems hence with a  manufactured smile I expressed a request, " Oh! You are right I suppose it seems I haven't. Do you mind if I walked with you while you educate my measly mind about this book? You are free to reject the offer and walk your merry way! But considering you were reading it with such vivid attention, I can't help but wonder, what caught your  eye." 

She looked at me with slight concern?...no I think it's annoyance with a tinge of kindness??

She quickly spoke, "I suppose it isn't a problem."         

I suppose my smile had worked, well it had to I had to work hard to at least make it bearable

She continued, "But stop smiling, it's unsettling."

Or not, hmm, I think I have to return to my apathetic  expression

I said in monotone yet slight annoyance, "Alright, I feel you are right"

We walked as she explained to me the contents of the book, which even if I had read gave me a fresh viewpoint, I remember a lesson I learnt at the White Room,

 'EVERYONE IS A TREASURE OF KNOWLEDGE, GAIN IT AND LEARN'.