Gabriela's tale

thirty

sexual content.

please trust me with this chapter!

Weeks have passed on, everything still felt so lonely. I miss john everyday.

I'm not myself anymore, but I have to put on a face everyday.

The kids need me, and I made a promise to myself and to john that I will be here for them, no matter what.

I worked mostly everyday, it helps me focus on something else other than john.

Michael's getting better. He's walking now, with a cane, but he's walking. I go and visit him sometimes, just to see how he's doing.

Polly's back to her old self, after a year of trying to get her out of that cloud she was in, she's finally back.

We're still in Small Heath, trying to stay safe from the mafia. Every morning I leave the house, I worry if someone's waiting outside, just to shoot me.

I worry for my kids every day, my family. I need them to be all right, and for all this vendetta shit to stop...

**February 25th 1926**

I've made a mistake and I can't make the guilt go away....

Going back to my birthday, February 2nd. I turned twenty six this year, and to be honest I wasn't excited about it at all.

Not having john around to celebrate was hard. A year ago that day he asked me to become his wife...

That morning I went to work, leaving the kids with Linda.

I did my per usual work, trying to keep my mind off of john and just try to concentrate on my work, but today keeping my mind off of john was particularly hard.

A few hours into my day Lizzie came by the office, she knocked on my door, and opened it quickly.

A big smile on her face, and a box in her hand.

"Happy birthday gabby." she said, putting the box down in front of me.

"Thank you... what is it?" I asked, opening the box.

It's was a little chocolate cake.

"I thought I'd get you a cake... I know you've had a hard time recently and I just thought you could use a little something." she said, with a warm smile.

"Thank you Lizzie. Very kind of you. It smells nice." I said, my eyes watering up.

I got up and gave her a hug.

"I love chocolate cake." I said, with a chuckle.

"I thought you would."

"Well, I'll let you have your cake and let you get back to work." she said, giving me one last smile before walking out of my office.

I saw her shadow walked towards tommy's office.

I grabbed a fork from my desk and took a bite of the chocolate cake, It was good. Just like Tim's chocolate cake. I only ate a few bites, before putting it to the side and getting back to work.

I needed tommy's signature on a check for May Carleton. She's training his horse again. I needed his final authorization before sending it out.

I got up and walked towards his office. I opened the door and saw Lizzie leaning in front of his desk, while he stood by his whiskey cabinet.

"tommy. I need your signature on these." I said, as I walked up to his desk, putting the papers down.

"Well, I better get going." Lizzie said, grabbing her coat and putting a soft hand on my shoulder as she walked out the room.