To breathe
Is too much
To feel but not
Is unbearable
To be an outcast
Is beyond painful
Always tired
Always uncomfortable
Always on edge
Never knowing what I'm feeling
Never knowing what's real and what's not
Never knowing myself
Overthinking
Over everything
Over it all
Hanging on
To that thin
Flimsy rope
Has worn through flesh and bone
Has left my muscles quivering
In exhaustion and strain
I have no right to feel as I do
No justifiable reason
It's inexcusable
Unforgivable
But I can't fix it
I can't stop it
And I'm not sure I want to
H.P.J.C
