Letters from me to you ( HP Character )

Sirius to Regulus

You idiot! how could you! how could you go and die! How could you go and leave me! I did everything I could to keep you alive! And this is how you repay me? I tried to be there for you every day.

I hated being the disappointment while you shined. I was always the family fool, the one our mother made fun of. Do you remember when I would protect you from her? She would make you feel so small, so little. How could I not protect you? You were my little brother. I vowed to protect you from everything, and everyone.

The day you were born was one of the best days of my life, you made me so hopeful that there was beauty in this world that had been so grim for so long. You made it look so beautiful. How could I not want for you to stay this beautiful baby, innocent, naïve...

Do you remember the first time you saw her use that curse on me? Do you remember that day? I told her I would not take into her beliefs. I would not make her control my life. I would have taken every single curse for you, so that you would be safe. You cried when I was on the ground biting my lips till, they bled, but I would never give her the satisfaction of seeing my pain. You helped me, you said you would always be by my side no matter what. Was that all a lie?

The day you came to Hogwarts... oh how I remember that day. You entered the great hall. You were determined, I did not recognize the beautiful little boy I knew back then. What happened to you? What did that monster do to you?

You were sorted into that house! You shared their beliefs. And I thought you would always be by my side. You decided to protect yourself by joining them. You decided to stay in that house. You decided to become the coward I had always hoped you would never be. How could I look at you straight in the eyes? How could I look at you and see the young boy I had once shown magic to? How could you just abandon me like that?

Remember when I decided to confront you? I apologized for leaving you in that house... with them... what did you say to me again? Rot in hell.... Yeah .... That's about where I am right now... in hell... or not far from Tartarus... Like Orpheus... if I could I would bring you back... just for a minute... to apologize... to know if you forgive me... if I could just see your stupid grin that you had as a child... to hear your silly laugh... to share a moment... just a moment... is that too much to ask? Merlin! Godrick... whoever can hear me.... Is it too much to ask? To see your little brother one more time. One more minute! One more second.... Please just give me that time... I know I have done bad things... I know I have been wrong sometimes... but please I would do anything... anything to see him again.

We are about to go to war and just like the last one... I will fight and protect him. He meant so much to them and he means so much to me. So, wherever you are brother... if I don't make it tonight... please... protect him... wherever you may be. It is the last thing I ask of you... just protect him.

I love you idiot! Why did you have to die before me...? Reggie....