Letters from me to you ( HP Character )

From Remus to Sirius (Wolfstar)

Did you have to do it? What happened to you? What happened to us? We were happy and contempt? Did you have to go that night? Why did you leave me? Was I not enough for you? Tell me!

You left me in our house! You left me alone in the dark when I needed my light! My flame! My love! You were angry! You had been drinking again! You had accused me of betraying the cause! Of betraying them! You had thrown the necklace I had gotten you all these years ago... it was my first gift to you... and you threw it away like our years together meant nothing. Why? Tell me!

We were so happy, we were free, free to be together, free to love each other. You had once told me, the stars were our friends because they had made us get together. You even pointed out our star. The one you would look at when I was on a mission, that I would look up to at night when I missed you on those long summer holidays.

I always hated the night because it reminded me of my other side, of my dark side, the monster within me. Until I met you, I couldn't go out at night without hating myself. You made me see its beauty. You made me see how beautiful the stars are. You showed me their beauty. You shared with me their story. When you showed me your star, I remember it like it was yesterday, we were in the astronomy tower you had just come from detention. You sat down next to me and you started to point out the different stars, when I pointed yours out. You smiled and took my hand in yours. I was so red; I think I could have competed with a poppy to see who was the reddest. You laughed and kissed my hand. You told me that if ever i missed you I should just look up and see your star, the brightest out of all stars. Yes, you were my light, my star, my moon, my everything. I kissed you that night, remember? I kissed you and you kissed me back. I was so happy, so tell me what changed? Tell me!

We started to see each other more and more, stolen kisses between classes, stolen moments in the showers, in the library. When I was with you, I felt invisible, I felt powerful. You gave me the strength I needed to carry on. You were mine to hold, mine and I loved it. I was yours. So why did you leave me? Tell me!

When we started to go on missions, you started to become distant. You didn't kiss me anymore; your hugs didn't hold the same love and warmth. When I needed you the most, you would leave to go on another mission. I would wait up for you, worried out of my mind. When you came back with wounds, you wouldn't let me help. Why? I thought.... You promised me! Remember our last full moon together? At school? You promised me forever. You told me no matter what you would always be there for me! What happened to those promises? To those words? Tell me! Tell me!

You accused me of being the traitor that night, you attacked me with your cruel words, your powerful voice. You attacked me when I was at my weakest. You told me things.... Would you still say the same things now? You shouted to foul words as if they were nothing. You threw away our time together as if it had meant nothing.... Was our love not true? Did our time together mean nothing? How could you? Tell me! Do I still mean nothing to you? Do you regret us? Do you regret our time together? Tell me!

The next morning, I cried, I shouted, I wasn't human anymore. The moment you walked out that door, you took my light, you took my hope, you took the thing that made me hope and be human. I was a ghost, a specter after that, I was no longer human. You made the beast inside me come out. You don't know how I felt after that. You were away. Everyone I loved was gone. You had killed the only friend we had left. You had blamed me for their death. They had taken him away. They had him in a family that could not love him like we could. Do you remember when we talked about having our own family? When you had told me, you wanted the same as them. You were so happy talking about it. I remember your smile, your enthusiasm... if I could turn back time, If I could turn back the clocks, I would, I would go back and prevent it all. I would go back and make you understand, make you listen. Tell me! Would you have listened to me? Would you have wanted my truth? Tell me the truth!

I am alone, I am no longer light, I am dark, I am beast. I am what you made me, you made this. The thing I am today, you molded, you created this person I am today. I no longer live, I roam the city, I long to know what living is again. What is living? When everything you loved is either gone or lost? Tell me! Tell me!

If I could see you, if I could talk to you.... What would I say? I love you? I hate you? I don't know... I don't know because it has been so long. Is my love for you still there? Do you still hate me? After all these years? I don't know... and I don't think I want to know... but I am telling you... I wish I could see you again in our youth.... When we were carefree when you loved me and you would smile, and laugh and cry on my shoulders. That is my wish and greatest desire...