Deadly helpful ( SF )

23.

I woke up really early, I saw a low light out of the window . Larry was still spooning me , I was pretty warm and cozy thanks to that. I think he was asleep , but I still felt his breath on my neck . ,,Stawp ittt ... Shaaall...." Ash sleep talked . Damn , so there is really something between them ! At least in her dreams , if it is in real life ,  she'd tell me . Or so i hope ! Shes always so mad at me for not telling her at least a little bit , but she's keeping her own secrets ?

Well, fine ... I had actually a good dream after the last one ... it was like I teleported to another dream ... this time , there was talking dolphins flying on the skies , we had a house in the clouds -me , Sal , Larry and ash ... pretty modern one . It was fun , I wonder if this is how the heaven looks like , if it exists . If it looks like this , and you're living the best life with people you truly love , I wonder why we aren't all dead ... why are we living , when we can't be happy and calm in life ? It could be so much easier , we felt calm and happy , as we are suppose to be . Of course , everybody says that we are on earth because this is the hell, everybody in church would tell you about it ... or at least in this town. Our church is freaking me out most of the time...You can literally hear awful screams almost everytime you go around it. I wonder if our church has a metal band, even tho those are really painfull screams. But i feel like they would sit perfectly sometimes.

I was laying in bed for a long time , with closed eyes , wondering about those kind of things. I love those deep thinking moments , but also they are tearing me apart . Its fun to think about things , but when you think about some of them for a quite a long time , it'll make you wonder about life and also hate life. Is it even good to stay? It's kinda weird how Larry is actually the first person who started talking about this with me . It felt weird at first , but his deep thoughts were very poisoning . They are stuck in my head since then and this dream even made them worse .

Larry moved a little and whispered . ,,Are you awake ?" I smiled , opened my eyes and saw ash staring at us . I've gotten scared and moved a little bit , but quickly to the front . Larry's hands stopped me , he hugged me more tight . They woke me up from my wondering episode too quickly. ,,Are you ok ? What happened , another nightmare?" He whispered. ,,No no, ...look at ash and you'll see." He moved a little , but the bed creaked loudly . ,,Oh creepy . Is this normal ? " ,,I'm not sure . I usually sleep turned to the wall , so I can't see her normally ... maybe that's why I feel like someone watches me most of the nights . Wait ... ASH ! " I yelled . Poor ash kinda freaked out, at first she blinked and the second after opened her eyes again in shock . ,,why the fuck would you wake me like this , asshole ? Jesus i think you woke up the whole house! " she said in her slow sleeping voice .  I giggled and Larry bursted out laughing...of course the laugh was very quiet , because everybody else in this house didn't know Larry is here. After a second he couldn't hold it in anymore and he started to sound like a teapot . Ash had her eyes slightly closed , still watching us , sleepy and mad . ,,What is so funny ? " she said . Larry stopped laughing with a smirk on his face . ,, I bet that Sally face doesn't know you like this ! " ,,Oh shut up ! " she said and threw a pillow at us . ,,Soo moody Girl! " I said in teasing voice .,, What time is it ?" Larry asked . I reached for an alarm clock . ,,9 am ... listen , we can do it like this . You are supposed to be here later , so ... we can ask SALLY FACE OUT -" ash was out of nowhere really paying attention to us . ,,- and go have breakfast, and then we can go somewhere , I don't care where , BUT when will the time come, we will arrive together back here . " ,,Oh ! I'm sorry , I left my suit at home ... we can go to my place after breakfast tho ." ,,fine , ok love ... it's actually more logic that what I thought about at first . "