all of my problems in one story

down hill

a lot has happened in the past 2-3 days

my anxiety has started to just get worse

i got rejected again

so let's talk about it!!! (i just need to say i have no one else to talk to)

so the anxiety thing

recently me and my friend were "fist fighting" (we weren't actually fighting, also this is the same person who rejected me, but we'll get to that) ANYWAY. she told me she was going to punch me in the throat. i said "do it, it wouldn't be the first time" (now i say that bc my friend said she was going to hit me in the throat if i didn't drink my water) and after that class...(this was at school if i didn't say that) my teacher makes me stay after class. and i get super nervous, i thought i was in deep trouble. he asks me "do you feel safe at home?" woah, not what i was expecting. and i started to panic and saying "yes" multiple times bc of how nervous i was. (yes i am safe at home, i promise) and he was like "you sure?" i am telling you, this man knows to much, by not knowing enough...does that make sense??

and now the rejection part

so that friend i was talking about

i've liked her for a loooooooooong time

and i had another friend ask what her feelings were towards me

she was saying how were platonically (i think that's how you spell it) married. which i new already, not news to me. but that still didn't answer my question.

so after a few more minutes of this, she finally says, no, she doesn't have feelings for me.

once again

i've been rejected