His Unexpected Goodbye

Chapter 19

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Time is precious, it's unpredictable and every move will left you unsure of the outcome. There I was, stuck in a situation where I completely froze, as if everything around me stopped, and even the most precious, unpredictable and distrustful time, stopped.

If there was anything I valued most, it was time. Yet because of him, and as our eyes meet, the moon shined brightly, facing each other as we both stood outside Casa Courdova's gate,the cold breeze kept rippling through my hair, I wanted to make more time.

At that moment, I wished time could be borrowed. I held on to the words he has spoken out, and I felt eager to make this escape, this getaway, to enjoy another one of his whereabouts, hoping this won't be the last of them.

On his tone, in his eyes, I grew afraid. He was talking to me, persuading me, like it was the last time. I smiled at him and nodded, I could see how his expression changed. He smiled at me, and seeing that, made my heart flutter.

I didn't care where we're off, it didn't matter where he was going to take me, I did not hold any hesitance and faltering. He handed me the other helmet, and after wearing it, I hopped on. I circled my arms around him. He drove off.

My head resting on his back, my eyes closed and my hands stayed there, holding close. The wind caressed my bare skin, he drove at a slow pace, and I wanted the drive to be slow, I want to remain in that moment for as long as I could.

As I stared at the road, Korics made a turn towards a street, a route I don't usually notice. From how I see it, we're a bit far from the village now. He kept driving silently, until we stopped on this boulevard.

He parked his motorcycle and I went down, he carefully guided me and when my sandals touched the ground I looked around and the place was peaceful, silent, and we were the only ones there.

Along the road, there's a bench and we both walked towards it, as we both sat down I noticed how silent he was. I just stared at him, knowing he's going through something, yet he knew I am always here for him.

"Care to tell me what's going on?" I asked him, he sighed heavily while trying to think about how or will he ever start. I was patient, I always was, especially when it comes to him. "It's okay if you don't want to, I will never force you.."

"If I suddenly leave you behind, would you get mad at me?" He asked, I was taken aback but eventually, I thought to myself. Why was he asking in the first place? "If I suddenly disappear, will you shut your doors on me?"

"It depends. If you're going to leave because you have something to chase, wether it's a dream or it's a goal, do I even have the right to get mad? I don't even know how to get mad at you." I laughed, but he just gave me this weak smile. "What brought this on?"

"If I ask you to leave me, would you?" He says, which made me look at him and just stare blankly before even trying to answer it. "If I told you to go away, would you?"

Would he want me to? I felt a sting in my heart the minute I heard all of those, was he trying to push me away? I felt so confused. I didn't want to answer it because it feels like I was digging my own grave. I felt hurt, I am in pain, emotionally.

If it's for us, or even if it isn't, if I could force things to end up the way I want them to, I would stay beside you forever, I would spend infinity with you. If it even exists. If you'd push me away, if you would ask me to leave, I will still choose to stay.

Weren't you the one who said all of those? That even if I get tired and would end up wanting to cut you off my life, you would still stay. I'm... willing to do all of that for you, I'm willing to return the same greatness to you.