The pretend

Chapter 14

Everett

I'm pregnant?

I'm pregnant?

No matter how much I say it I can't believe it. I don't even know why it's hard to believe when I pushed the pill in the ass. This is what I wanted right, to have my child but I'm hella scared and nervous. Don't get me wrong, I'm not scared or regret pushing the pill, actually, I'm happy I did it but what scares me is what my husband is going to think of me.

I disobeyed him, he practically told me to not do it. No matter how much I begged him he refused but I did neither the less.

Now I have been sick for three weeks, not getting out of bed, feeling dizzy, throwing up after eating and my loving husband had been staying home to take care of me. He works at home and he is scared for my life. I knew the first day when I started to feel like this, I knew it was because of the pill, that's why I refused him to call the doctor or take me to the hospital. After a few days of feeling shitty, I called doctor Emerson and the man told me to buy a pregnancy test.

I ordered it online cause I didn't have the energy to go to the supermarket or pharmacy and I wasn't gonna tell Red to go buy it for me. I didn't want him to know. I bought four of them just to be sure and they all came out positive with two red sticks, that's how I'm sure that I'm pregnant.

I feel shitty and guilty whenever I see Jared taking care of me, so worried about my condition. I lied to him when we promised each other that we will never lie but I lied in his face. The good thing is I didn't get depression, I just throw up, and sometimes my stomach hurts but not too much. Those are the only side effects I have.

Which is a good thing.

Right?

Doctor Emerson said it wasn't a big deal and said that I will be good in the next few days. I'm progressing perfectly.

Now that it's three weeks, the man needs to check on me and see if everything is fine and that's where the problem is. He has to come here at home coz I can't board a plane and go to him because of the situation I am in but Jared is always here.

"Ev are you in there" I snap my eyes to the door. I was currently in the shower. "There you are, do you need help" he looked at me with a smile making me feel more guilty. He had been so supportive of me.

"No, I'm done" I turn off the shower and getting a towel from the rack slugging it around my waist. My stomach was still flat but my abs are disappearing like they weren't there in the first place. Ace says that my stomach will start showing when I'm eight to twelve weeks. But when I touch it it's hard like a stone meaning that there is something inside. I brushed my teeth as Jared hold my hand as we walked out of the bathroom. He sat me on the bed and surprisingly he made it. It's not the best but he tried "you made the bed"  I ask amused.

He wasn't a person to do this "I thought since you stay there all day so....." he smiled sweetly trialing off "are boxers ok" he asked

"A short is fine, I want to sit outside to get some fresh air," I say with a heavy breath. He nodded getting me shorts and a shirt.

"My parents called," he says lowly helping me put on. It's funny how the roles had changed. I was the one to do this for him but now he was the one doing it "they are asking when Eva will be back" he whispered. We had told them that I had gone to see my family since they were blowing up my phone.

"In a few days, I will be fine" Red looked at me for a few minutes as if trying to read me.

"How will you be fine when you don't take medicine or not go to the hospital hmmm" he arched his eyebrows in questioning. I looked away from his face too ashamed to look at him. I have betrayed him.