Okay I will sometimes post rants and here's one/
This week has honestly been one of the worst weeks of my life! People at school just are terrible! So many lies have started about me this week. Apparently because I'm a 40D in a bra size and sometimes my shirts are low cut I'm a slut? Or how about since my mom and I got in a yelling match infront of people my moms abusing me! And then there's the truth about what's going on! My aunt is a recovering alcoholic who lives with me. On my way to play practice we stopped at a store to get "cigarettes" when in reality she got alcohol. I told my mom and now that's all my family is focused on once again abandoning me and buying me things to make up for it. NOTE THAT BUYING EXPENSIVE THINGS DOESNT MAKE ME FEE LOVED! I'm thankful for the stuff I get but all I want is to feel loved and appreciated. Tonight I went to church hoping to get some relief. I met one of my favorite pastors and he's pretty well know in a lot of countries. His name is Chad Veach so if you like a funny guy who's teaching is based to a teenage audience I definitely recommend him! So I finally got to meet him after waiting for 2 1/2 years and he just prayed with me and told me I was beautifully and wonderfully made and took a selfie with me. Well because I ran out of storage I said I'll just take it on snapchat! Well as I went to save it THE PICTURE DEETED! Like really people at my school think I'm a slut, that my moms an alcoholic and abusing me and shit just keeps getting worse and I feel like I have no one except my best friend. Shittiest part about that is that I live in 40 minutes from Chicago and she lives in Reno! Perfect so the one person I trust with everything I can't see. My moms a flight attendant. I get free flights because of that so I asked if I could meet her and all hell broke loose like I just don't understand. I'm caught in between my mom and dad fighting and I have a bitter grandmother. So if you live in Munster Indiana and/or go to school there thank you so very much for making this the worst week I have had in a very long time! Because of you I'm right back to feeing terrible and as soon as something happens you will be the first to act like you care! So on that note I hope everyone else had a better week! Also if you all ever need to talk to anyone I'm always here! I know this isn't safe at all what I'm about to do but just message me for my cell phone number if you need to talk because I promise I will remind you you are worth something because you are! You guys are beautiful like unicorns and together we can slay irrelevants I love you guys 😘 you all keep me sane and make me few wanted by reading my book so thank you 😘
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My James Dean- A Matthew Espinosa Love Story
FanfictionHey guys this book was originally so what are we now but I'm changing the title but everything is still the same!
