My James Dean- A Matthew Espinosa Love Story

Chapter 16//explaining myself

Once again I didn't follow through and I'm sorry but- one of my very best friends passed away and have just been crying all the time! But I'm going to Digi Fest Chicago on 6/20/15 and I got retweeted by Digi lol but on with the chapter
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Zoe's POV:
Although he thinks I'm wasted as hell, I'm not.
I know I'm just adding another problem but Matthew is honestly the only person who makes me this happy. Even if we aren't together and we are just pretending I'm honestly very happy. I missed being able to be in his arms and feel his embrace. Just thinking about how we ended things on such a rough note last time without knowing anything about each other still drives me insane. I was just focusing on his features when I get a call from a panicked Sophie calls.
"Do you think I can come over and you can help me with something?"
"It depends I'm laying down in a comfortable bed happy as can be a-"
"Look- I'm a couple of days late and I'm scared."
"Say no more just don't come over yet okay?"
"Z you act like I don't know you and Matt slept together last night it doesn't matter to me okay I have other priorities a-"
"Calm your tits damn just come over" and with that I hung up and slipped from matts grasp. I took another shower and put on some sweats and just went makeup free. When Sophie got here we took her car and she wanted to eat first so we went to a diner.
"Z what if I'm pregnant? What if he leaves?"
Me being me started laughing at the fact she actually thought Aaron would leave
"Sophie He loves you, most times more than I love chipotlé or Beyoncé so I'm sure he won't leave!" After eating for two hours we head over to a drug store and picked up five different test. After driving back to my place due to her not wanting Aaron to see the test I open the door to a pissed off Matt.
"You just fucking left! No note, nothing and do you know how that feels? After doing that last night for you just to fucking leave!"
I really didn't know what to say and frankly he is the last person I need to yell at me
"Look I'm sorry I had my phone on do not disturb and I didn't leave a note. Can you just stay for a couple of hours and we can talk?" He calmed down quickly and sat down while Sophie and I went to the restroom. As she took care of her necessities I waited out in my hall. Once she was done we waited in the bathroom for five minutes before all the test came back the same- positive. That day was spent with tears from Sophie in my room. I drove her home to pack some stuff and told her to tell Aaron we were having a sleepover and not to worry. After that I took her back to my house and put her in my room to sleep. Once she was out a wrote a note for her and Matt and I went out. We quickly resolved things. But we actually needed to talk I wasn't completely sure if I was okay with "faking it". Like even though the two of us weren't actually aloud to date that didn't mean we couldn't do it secretly. So freaking cliché I know but still I was loving the new him. The way he had the live fast die young attitude, the way he dressed now and how much he reminded me of James Dean whenever I looked at him in his beautiful eyes. Being completely honest I'm just going to wear the pants tonight and be honest on what I want and if he doesn't want it I'll get the hell over it and move on.

Matts POV:
After Zoe admitted all of that to me I wasn't shocked or anything- but I don't want to fuck this up so as kindly as I could say it just told her we should just wait awhile and luckily she just smiled and grabbed my hand and said I'm okay with that!

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As fucking cliche and cheesy as that was its late at night I have to be up early and I'm kinda just brain washed right now due to so much stress! I'm thinking of making a Nate/Skate Maloley book because their aren't a lot but he's fucking daddy a'f so I hope ya'll have a good night and sweet dreams ✌🏾️