Beautiful Lies

Chapter 7

"Minzy.... Dehan is dead.... Two years ago,"

"Wh... Wh... WHAT?"

Dehan is dead. That guy. This is too much. NO. I can't feel the tears when I need them. I want to feel the pain out of the sudden, so I can cover up this reality. So I can continue to ignore this emptiness. Why... Why is it always be me who have to go through this?

"No... You are lying right?"

"I'm sorry, I'm sorry. I just knew about this, Minzy," says Luna. She reaches out my hands and pulls me into her embrace.

"Go away, go... I need to be alone,"

The strength of my body is gone and I can only pushes Luna away weakly.

"Just go. Go, all of you,"

"Minzy," Luna once again tries to reach out for my hands but Sehun stops her from doing so. Our eyes barely meet each other. Why now only I can differentiate between them? When the first time we walked across each other's path, I was so overwhelmed by my emotions. Then the second time, I was too drunk to know that he isnt Dehan. I know he's different, I can feel it... I just can't bring myself to say so, probably because I miss him too much.

"Come on, she needs some time. I'm sorry for your loss, Minzy," says Sehun. His voice sounds exactly like him. Twin. That thought alone wanting me to burst out laughing. Fate is so cruel. Even after Dehan dies, I feel like I have been haunted by him. Sehun holds Luna's shoulders and leads her out of the room. Kai still stands in front of the door.

"I need to be alone, Kai,"

Kai walks to Luna's bed and sits down. "No, I want to stay," he says. "You don't actually want to be alone,"

"Kai..."

"I'm here. I will always be here, Minzy,"

My heavy shoulders drop as I let out a sigh and walks across the room to sit down beside Kai.

"I can't cry. I should cry, I should have felt the pain. Dehan is dead. Two years ago. And all I did was pushing his siblings away," Luna and Sehun. Sister and twin brothers. At least I know about his family now. I was stupid to not to believe in Dehan is his real name.

"Why Kai? Why I have to go through all of this. My mother, Dehan..."

"You know, this might be off topic, you are the bravest girl I ever knew, and your strength blew me away. And maybe because of that that's why you have to go through all this. Because, all of these is to build you, to prepare you to appreciate the happiness,"

I just let Kai to hold my hands. I need him the most at this time.

"Will there be happiness for me?" Is there happiness out there? I keep on wondering. One after another, my childhood was filled with a mother who should had protected me, instead of betraying her mother nature and made my life a living nightmare. When I try to start smiling because of a boy, he betrayed me and left me, without an answer to my never ending questions.

"There is, Minzy. And I will make sure that happiness will be yours,"

"Thank you Kai. Thank you for choosing to stay. I feel empty and I need to cry. My tears just won't come out."

"I don't know him. But right now I'm kind of envy of him even though he's not here anymore. He's still alive in your heart. That's more important than anything. Now I have to work harder and hoping that one day I'm the one that can get a place in your heart,"

Eventually I smile. I might be heartless. Feeling nothing on people who make my life suffer. Like Kai said, even if they died, they still live in my heart. Always. Forever.