Beautiful Lies

Chapter 8

"Hish!!!"

My hand flies to the cupcake which is on Kai's palm before he swallows my favorite flavour cupcake.

"I've told you, you can eat anything but not this. This is mine and I don't give two words about this,"

Kai pouts and hands over my lemon card cupcake "hmmph~" He takes a chocolate cupcake and eats it in one go. I really can't understand how he eat so many but still manages to maintain that six pack body of his.

"Ah... I almost forgot. Here," Kai takes out two tickets from his pocket.

I take the ticket from Kai, " Movie ticket?"

"Yeah, I had won some contest on the radio so this is the prize. The movie is about a brother who saves his little sister and becomes spy for his country,"

"That sounds interesting," I comment.

"So, you saying yes?"

"Yes" I answer quietly "Why wouldn't I?"

Kai grins from ear to ear, "YES!!!! It's our first date,"

Minzy, here's your chance to forget about the past and accept new invitations to a new life. That voice, always in my head. Do I have to remember it every time chances like this come to me? It's been a week. I don't remember that guy or even my past. Why do you have to constantly reminding me of my pain?

"Minzy..." Kai touches my hands, brings me back from my thought.

"Yeah.... It's a date,"

I stand up and pack my things, my mood is gone and I lost my appetite. While I'm busy with my things, Kai receives a phone call and asks for my permission to answer it. I just nod then put all my stuff into my backpack. I watch Kai talking to someone on the phone with serious tone. His shoulder tenses, seems that he's very angry with that person. Kai then puts away his phone and turns to me. He looks guilty, like he wants to talk to me about something and in dilemma whether to say it or not.

"Minzy, I think, Sehun is waiting for you at your room. I mean outside of your room."

Sehun. My dead boyfriend's twin. The guy I mistook as Dehan and smashed my birthday cake at his face.

"What does he want?"

"Sehun wants to take Luna's stuff. I forget to tell you. Luna is moving into our house. The house that Sehun and me and two other guys sharing. Basically it's Sehun house. His father paid for the house, so we..."

"Enough, I don't have to know all the details," I let out a chuckle. "So, Luna will move out. She didn't say anything to me," Yeah, I don't blame Luna for being the sister of the guy I love. If anything, I'm supposed to be the one who avoids them and move out from this college. Since that evening, Luna never come back to our shared room. Her stuff is still unpack. Staying peacefully on her bed like they are staring at me and urging me to open them.

"Will you be okay?"

"I'm okay. I will be," I want to make Kai to believe me, it's just that my lips aren't work along with my lies.

"Let's go then," said Kai.

"No, I want to do this alone. Kai, I shouldn't run away like this. I have to face it. Alone. I have to. You have already done so much for me. I feel like, I'm misusing your care for me to avoid from all of this,"

"Okay, if you want to go, I can't hold you back forever right?" Kai pulls me into a hug. He whispers to my ear, "But if you need anything, anything, just call me. I will come to you,"

I sink deeper into Kai's arms. I almost want to agree with Kai. I want Kai to be there with to face Sehun. Another me, the stronger me, is telling me to do it alone. So I let go of Kai who's smiling, because he knows better than anyone, at time like this what I need is support.Maybe this is a cue for me to let go of the past.

***

A familiar figure is standing in front of my room. As I walk near, Sehun lifts his face up from his phone and looks at me. Without any emotion overwhelming me or alcohol to confuse me, now I can see clearly, that their differences are starting to appear. After knowing that he isn't Dehan, how can I deny that he is Sehun. Still, even though they are different, there are still too many similarities between them. The eyes, the voice that always sound empty and cold. Their attitudes are also different. In front of me, the same face like Dehan, only this guy have huge confidence and very charismatic.

"Hey, Minzy," greets Sehun.

"Hi," I open the lock and let Sehun to enter first. "So I heard that Luna is going to move in to your house?" Deep in my heart I wouldnt like to make any conversation. The words just flow out naturally, like I have known him for a long time. Please Minzy, stop thinking that he is Dehan.

"Yeah, the actual plan was she moving in with me for the college. She didn't want to bother me so she applied for dorm. With everything that had happened, I guess it's better for her to stay with me," Sehun turns his back on me while unzipping Luna's suitcase.

"What happened?"

Sehun stops throwing his sister's stuff all over place. The silent overpowers this small room. I sit down on my bed because I know what Sehun is going to say, I can't take it without me keep falling down. Sehun moves his body to face me.

"He is a nice guy. He is the best brother. He showed me how the world can be so heartless yet so beautiful, there is always some kindness being untainted. Dehan taught me how to survive in this cruel world. And to think about him as how you remember Dehan, I can't accept that. I'm sorry if this sounds rude, Dehan is far from what you know about him,"

Sehun takes out a book from his backpack and gives it to me. The book turns out to be a journal. The first page has the name of the guy that haunts me every day and night. Dehan.

"That's Dehan's journal. I think, I should give that to you. That's how I know you"

I stare at the journal for too long to notice that Sehun has carried Luna's suitcases on both of his hands and is already walking towards the door.

"I think this is enough for Luna. I will come back next time. And Minzy..." I look straight to his eyes, "Dehan loved you. I just want you to know that,"

I know. I know.