Jaido

Chapter 3: Jaido Jaygo

I am already so done. This sucks ass. Halender is way too eccentric for me. I don't have patience to deal with him. Jesse, Greg and Nitro seem to be walking around on thin ice with me. Which is probably a good idea. I've been here about a week and I can't stand it. It's so much to deal with and change is not my friend. I am very much over this. But of course I can't tell them that, I have to act like I'm fine. It's just tough. I have bad trust issues and assume certainly did not help. I'll admit, they been trying and I appreciate that, but they understand it's hard for me.
"Hey Jai?" Halender asked.
"What?" I asked.
He flinched. I don't mean to be brash but that's how I am until I trust you.
"We have a gang meeting in a few hours. It'll take us an hour or so to get there. We were gonna take your truck, if that was okay." Halender asked.
"Well obviously I'm going with you. None of y'all are driving it." I said.
"Well yeah, of course." Halender said.
"Fine. Just let me know when we're leaving." I said.

I turned away from him and started checking my guns making sure they were loaded. Halender sighed and went back upstairs, I'm assuming to inform Jesse and the others. Minutes later, they came downstairs and Jesse walked up to me.
"Hi, JJ." Jesse said.
I glared at him. I didn't like that nickname but I guess I'm stuck with it. Greg and Nitro have started calling me 'Jai' since I blew up on them about it.
"You ready?" Jesse asked.
"Yeah." I said.
They followed me out to my truck and we all got in. Jesse in the passenger seat, Greg to the left, Halender in the middle, and Nitro on the right in the back seat, I in the driver's seat. I turned on the radio and one of my favorite songs was playing. 'Dancing on My Own' by Calum Scott. I started mindlessly, quietly singing the song to myself, forgetting they can hear me. I've dealt with a lot in my 18 years. I've been betrayed, abused, manipulated, left for dead so many times. Zayne was my biggest issue, he hated me. I fear that being here with Jesse isn't going to be much better. But I don't know, he's growing on me. It definitely feels different than the first day I got here. How that's possible, I've no idea. But apparently Jesse seems to know based on how'd he been looking at me lately. Once that song ended, my second favorite started playing.

'Zombified' by Falling in Reverse started playing. I could see Halender in my rear view mirror jamming out. Naturally I ended up doing so too.
"Cause everybody's talking bitch." I sang.
"Oh no, they'll never let go of something you said ten years ago." Halender sang.
"They're cancelling, cancelling you." I sang.
"And they won't stop till everybody's Zombified." Halender sang.
"They're pumping us with lies like it's formaldehyde. They're dead inside." I sang.
"It goes on and on, let this go. When it stops we'll never know." Halender sang.
"We're hypnotized. And they won't stop till you're Zombified." I finished the chorus off.

"You better shut your mouth and bite your tongue cause you don't wanna piss off anyone." I sang.
Jesse, Greg and Nitro were just watching us, clearly amused. The two of us are having a mini concert in my truck and they didn't say a word about it. Being a Guardian is a serious job but most leaders like their Guardians to be relaxed and not so uptight, like I am. Zayne wanted me to be strict, harsh and boring. I wasn't allowed to experiment as far as anything sexual went, even with myself. I had no outlet for my anger, stress or any negative emotion. It was hard for me. It still is.
"Jai? Can I ask you something?" Hal asked.
I took a sip of my regular Coca-Cola and nodded.
"Are you a virgin?" Hal bluntly asked.
I came seconds away from spitting it all over my windshield.
"I'm sorry?" I asked, choking a little.
Went down the wrong pipe as they say.
"Are. You. A. Virgin?" Hal repeated.
I stopped at a red light, turned and dead panned at him.
"Really?" I asked.
He nodded. Greg, Nitro and Jess snickered, sensing my uncomfortableness.
"Out of all questions you could possibly ask, you chose that one?" I asked.
Hal nodded again.
"It's not any of your concern but I'll humor you. Yes, I am." I said, truthfully.

"Really?" Hal asked.
"Why is that such a shock to people?" I asked.
"Well, you're cute and people are weak. Hey Boss, you can show him a good time!" Hal said excitedly.
I looked straight at the road, my cheeks a flaming red right now. Jesse was looking right at me.
"I could. Whenever he decides to let me. I'll pound into that tight ass so hard, he'll be screaming my name for the neighbors to hear." Jesse said.
"Oh, make sure to do that at your house." Hal said.

"Why don't we play the quiet game?" I asked.
Jesse chuckled, knowing he's getting a reaction out of me.
"Then you could collar him." Hal said.
I just stayed focused on the road. Trying to ignore their dumbasses.
"I have one. JJ will be my little submissive mate. I'll collar that pretty neck of yours. And I'll make sure every night you're reminded of why you're mine." Jesse promised.
Don't react Jai. Keep it together.
I could feel my arousal starting. Biting the inside of my cheek, I was trying to think of sad things.
"Struggling over there, JJ?" Jesse asked.
"No. Fuck you." I said, a little too quickly.
Jesse chuckled.
"Oh really? Cause something else says otherwise." Jesse said.
"Don't fix that issue with us in the car. We don't know how loud Jai is." Halender said.
"Oh, you fucking son of a bitch." I said.

Jesse put his hand on my thigh which was not helping my scenario.
"I'll take care of you later, baby. I'll make you my little bitch. I can't wait to see you that wear that collar with my name engraved on it." Jesse said.
I sighed heavily.
Think of children crying, dead trees, sad Pandas, something! Something sad and depressing. That tent in my pants better go down soon or I'm fucked.
I grabbed Jesse's hand and removed it. Him touching me especially so close to that area really wasn't helping.

"You'll be mine soon enough, JJ." Jesse promised.

God help me...