I'm Yours

You Fucking Idiot

2 weeks later...

Auggie's POV:

We've been back at school for a week now, and I haven't seen him once. We have English together, yet Ryker has not been in class. I've asked his friends if he was sick, but they told me they didn't know. He hasn't been answering his phone.

My nerves have calmed down since that day, and I've slowly been coming to my senses. I know Ryker didn't fuck his ex, he just said it out of anger. He was drunk, and not thinking straight.

I also know that I should give Ryker a chance to explain in detail about what had happened. Mama says to distance myself from Trey, and that's what I've been doing. He's been texting, and calling, but I've only been answering a few.

"Psst Auggie," whispers a girl with chestnut brown hair.

"Yes?"

"How have you been holding up? I mean two coma's in a span of a couple months. That's gotta be tough," she says sympathetically.

"Sorry, pardon? What are you talking about?" I say, my voice was beginning to become shaky.

"Ryker. His sister found him sprawled across the couch with a bottle of sleeping pills, and tequila dropped beside him. I only found out about this today from Jenny. I thought you knew," she says, her voice filled with sadness. "I'm really sorry Auggie."

"No it's fine... um, I-I gotta um, I have to go," I say, before rising from my chair and leaving the room.

This can't be real. When did this happen exactly? Was this when he called me? When the last thing I told him was that 'I don't love you anymore'.

As I scurry through the halls, and out of my school my heart is filled with guilt. Ryker couldn't have done this because of me. He isn't that stupid. He isn't that stupid. Shit.

My breath is shallow, and my vision blurry. What the fuck is wrong with me? Why would I say that to him. Who was I fucking lying to? I still love him. I'll always love him.

I text Willow to tell her that I'll be taking the car, and drive off. I speed my way to the hospital where he was last time, and head into the waiting area.

"Hi um... my name is August, and I um... is Ryker Carrington here?" I ask.

"Give me a moment," she says, before typing something on her computer. "Yes he is. Do you want to see him?"

"Um... is he awake?"

"Just woke up a few hours ago actually. We're keeping him overnight if you want to come back later."

"No um... I just uh... what happened?"

"I can't share those details with you. Sorry, it's confidential. If he wants to tell you however, then he can, but I am not allowed."

"I understand. Um... can I um, can you just tell him I was here," I say, letting out a sigh of relief to know that he's okay.

She looks at me with knowing eyes.

"Go see him," is all she says before going back onto her computer.

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I'm in front of his room, but I can't move. I'm trying so hard, but I just can't turn the handle to head inside.

What is wrong with me?

What the hell is wrong with me?

I go to reach for the handle again, but the door swings open.

It's Ryker, and he's looking down at me with hollow eyes, and pale skin. He does not look well, and the worst part is that the twinkle in his eyes are gone. No emotion can be seen in them as he looks at me.