He's the infamous new guy who of course has all the girls, and guys drooling over him.
His name... Flynn Dawson, the mysterious new student who only has his eyes set on person: Willow Skyes, a humorous, quick witted girl who also happens to be the...
Why the fuck would I do something like this? Fuck a girl? I didn't even enjoy it. Kelly did, but me? No. I felt sick throughout the whole thing
I feel so gross, and I am just so disappointed in myself.
After Kelly left the room with a bright smile on her face, I take a minute to analyze all the shit I just did. I'm so embarrassed with myself.
I'm not straight. I'm not bi. I'm gay.
I'm gay, and I just fucked a girl.
What the hell is wrong with me?
I then hear the doorknob turning, and my mind can't process who's standing in front of me.
It's Ryker.
He's standing in front of me with anger filled eyes. His black crew neck matches how dark his eyes look right now.
"You fucked Kelly?" He grits, his jaw tensing as he looks at me with anger.
I can't even answer him. I'm disgusted with myself, and the way he is looking at me right now just breaks my heart.
"Did you fuck Kelly?" He repeats, his voice cracking slightly.
"Y-yes," I answer, my eyes immediately starting to fill with tears.
He then slams the door loudly. The whole room shakes, and his eyes are staring at me with so much hatred. His nostrils are flaring, and his breathing is heavy as he tries to control his tears.
"Are you kidding me, Aug. Are you fucking kidding me! You couldn't just have left me with a broken heart. No, no, you had to go in and pull out my fucking heart from my chest. You fucked her. You lost your fucking virginity to some girl who you know nothing about. Y-you had to do something so disgusting that should make me not forgive you. Aug, why would you do something like this," he sobs, his anger turning into sadness. "Why would you hurt me like this?"
"I-I don't... I'm... Ryker... I... you hate me. You hate me, and I wanted to forget about you."
"What the fuck are you talking about? I can't hate you Aug! You're my fucking life, and I love you. I love you more than anything, but you. You betrayed me. You fucked Kelly, August! You fucked her!" He shouts, tears streaming down his face. "We were supposed to go through that journey together. I was supposed to make love to you, and make you feel comfortable. I would take my time with you, and never rush the process because I love you. I love you Aug."
I can't even talk because my throat is clogged with cries. I can hear the pain in his voice, and how he was now shaking. He was shaking, shouting and crying uncontrollably.
Ryker is in pain, and I am the one who caused it.
"Ryker, I'm so sorry. I'm so sorry," I cry, tears streaming down my face.
I'm starting to hyperventilate. I can't breath, and honestly I don't care. I deserve everything that I'm feeling right now.
"I should have believed you. I-I shouldn't have let you go. I shouldn't have believed Trey, and I shouldn't have told you I hate you. I don't hate you Ry. I'm in love with you, and I will always be in love with you," I say, sobbing loudly, and my body begins to shake as well.
"Why would you do this Aug?" His voice softens. "Why would you do this baby?"
"I don't know," I sob. "I'm embarrassed, and I feel disgusting, and I am so so sorry."
"Fuck," he whimpers, looking at me with kind eyes. The anger fuming from moments before has dissipated, and the twinkle in his eyes was slowly coming back. "Aug promise me you will never do something like this again. Promise me you won't ever do something that takes away from who you are. Promise me!"
"I promise," I whimper, tears still pouring down my face.
"Fuck Aug. Fuck," his voice cracks as he makes his way toward me. Opening his strong arms before wrapping them around me.
I instantly wrap my arms around him, and hold his body tighter. I missed his intoxicating scent, and warmth that came from his body. I've missed his shining hazel eyes, and chocolate brown hair. I've missed his deep voice that carried a soft rasp whenever he got excited. I've missed my love. My Ryker.
He nuzzles his face into my neck, as he holds me into his body. His breath is shallow as he continues to try and take a hold of his quiet cries.
"Ryker, I am so sorry for doing this to you. I hate myself for ever putting you in so much pain. I just- I just am a fucking idiot. I should've let you properly explain yourself. I—"
"Shh baby. I don't ever want to think about these past three weeks again. I'm with you now, and that's all that matters," he mumbles into my neck.
"Okay," I say, running my fingers through his wavy hair. "Okay."
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Ryker's POV:
I'm driving him home right now. The silence in the car isn't overwhelming, but needed. Today has been a rollercoaster of emotion, but luckily I have him back.
My sweet Aug.
In my coma I don't really remember anything other than the few moments I thought about Aug. Although I believed he hated me, I couldn't help but think about him. I love him. I never once hated him throughout this shit.
Even when I was being an ass to him at the hospital, I still loved my sweet Aug. He is my person, and I just can't think about a life where he's not in it. I don't want to live a life where he's not in it.
"Ry?" He asks, looking at me with his wide brown eyes.
"Yes?"
"You are such a kind person," he says. "I don't even know how you can stand to be near me after what I've done."
"Aug stop it. You were upset, drunk, and we weren't together. I'm not going to hold this over your head. I love you, and I don't resent you. Now say you're my boyfriend again," I say, moving a hand off the steering wheel, and taking ahold of his hand.
"You're my boyfriend," he smiles softly, squeezing my hand.
"Good. And I'm yours. Now don't ever fucking do some shit like this again. When you are having doubts, or issues in our relationship then we will fucking talk about it. We won't yell, but we'll talk. Get to the bottom of the problem, and find answers to solve the issue together, okay," I state.
"Okay," he nods, rubbing the back of my hand with his thumb. "And I promise I will never be a major idiot like this again."
"You were being a major fucking idiot," I say.
He laughs his deep, sexy laugh, and my knee begins to start bouncing like crazy. I have my sweet Aug back.
The man who completes me.
The man who I love. ———————————————————————
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Readers please forgive me for the sadness you have gone through these past chapters 🙏🏽☹️
