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chapter 5

sully and i begin to wrestle on the ground. he pinned me to the ground and next thing i knew he kissed me. i pushed him off fast "what r u doing?!" i say shyly. "im sorry i just , i coudnt help myself." he says i grab my stuff and run out the door. i couldnt see myself with anyone other then tyler. it disgusts me to be with anyone else even sully. i continue to run until i reach my house. but somehow i couldnt pull myself to go inside. i didnt want to see carey or tyler or sully or anyone. but it was getting late so i had to face it. i put my key in the lock and twisted it to the right. the door clicked and i walked in slowly. the first thing i heard when i walked in was loud moaning coming from upstairs. disgusting. i thought. how could tyler make love to a girl like that after what we did only days before. i grabbed something to drink and decided to stay downstairs so i didnt interrupt them.

there was a knock on the door that interrupted my netflix. i opened the door , and it was tyler! i looked puzzled at him. "i...i thought you were upstairs with carey..?" his face looked confused."mm no, i had to stay late at the office." he stepped in. he quietly went upsairs and peeked in the room. he came downstairs fastly. "shes masturbating.." he whispered. ohh i thought, so he didnt have sex with her after all. i had to ask a question but i was afraid tyler would be weirded out by it. "uh tyler,"i said . "yeah?" "um, whens the last time you had sex with carey?" he thought for a moment. "if ive known you three years then about 2-3 years ago, why?" i was astonished. "uh because... just because." "she just , he started, she just doesnt fulfill me like you, why are you screwing someone else?" he asked . "no" i replied fastly. "okay glad we have an understanding about all this. i tried to change the subject. "hungry? i can make something." he shook his head no. "k cool." i replied awkwardly. the moaning from upstairs stopped and shower water began to run. tyler looked at me with his blue eyes. "she takes pretty long showers..." he said. he got up and started kissing me. i kissed him back but something felt different. i hesitated. 'whats wrong.." he said looking into my eyes. i shrugged." Idk." I say . I really don't know what is wrong. he continues to press his lips against mine. the more he done that the more wrong I felt. was this my conscious? was I finally giving up on tyler? I couldn't even dream of the answer being yes. NO I assured myself. its carey. she makes me feel this way. I felt tyler take my clothes off and slowly start to penetrate me. for once I didn't feel sexual fulfillment, my thoughts were racing. I felt uncomfortable with her in the house. my thoughts continued to race throughout the whole time that I didn't even realize that tyler had put his clothes back on. and was heading upstairs.

i quickly got back dressed and went to my room. i took a quick shower before that though. i had to think of a way to get carey out the house so tyler and i can be happy. even if that meant going to extremes. i thought of many ways to get rid of her. make them breakup? no that will never happen. push her down the stairs? no, she would survive and call the police. my thoughts were getting really scary. I couldn't control myself I just wanted to be with tyler.