Twice My Age ✔︎

chapter 7 - such a gentleman

Deja's pov 🦋

It was a Sunday and my mother was at church with her husband.

I was home with Justin I didn't talk to anyone when it wasn't necessary.

"Yo, mi ago ball field wid mi fren dem," he says at my door.

I didn't even pay him any mind because weh him a tell mi that fah

Me hear the door close and mi get up and eat some cornflakes, after me bath and brush mi teeth.

Mi look pan the clock and it look like time not even pass since mi do that and mi glad more peace and quiet.

I heard a car blowing outside I avoided it because maybe the neighbors.

It blow again longer, I got up and walked to the door it was a new BMW car.

Who TF is this.

The window wind down and I see Killian. I shook my head, ready to walk back inside.

"Please, just 5 minutes" he shouted. Good thing the nosey neighbors went to a church.

I walked to the car quickly closing the door. " Yes, what do you want?".

"I'm sorry about what happened, I didn't want you to get in any trouble, are you ok?". He touched my hands. And I pulled back my hands.

"I'm fine if that's all you can go now I don't want any trouble".

"Deja please if something is going on you can talk to me you know".

"Why are you here huh," I said.

"You want the truth," he said looking at me

"Yes," I replied.

"I can't stop thinking about you Deja, I tried but I can't," he said taking my hands.

"What, are you fucking crazy, you are way older than me and I'm not looking for a relationship with anyone ok so please forget me and don't ever come here again" I shouted.

"Deja please,".

"Fuck you," I said walking back to the house.

I broke down.

I didn't mean to be harsh but I can't risk it again. I have been thinking about him too but I'll never tell him that.

I cooked rice and peas with Stew chicken and I made a vegetable salad. I carried my plate to the room. I studied a little, cry, study some more.

I pressed my uniforms for school tomorrow. I looked at my shoes I don't think they can go one more week, and I don't like asking for money.

I started thinking about Killian, I don't think it will work. He's a man and I'm just an immature child, weh him see in a mi.

I will save my lunch money to buy shoes a Payless. I also need pads.

I have my mother and I can't ask her for anything and she doesn't want me to have a boyfriend. Is this my hell? Can't I be happy for once?

I can't wait to graduate and get a job so I can take care of myself. So I don't have to ask anyone for shit.

Monday morning

Anna never come school so I was walking to the taxi stand by myself.

No taxi neva out deh so I had to stand up and wait. Bout 15 minutes pass and still no car. Me go in a the supermarket fi buy a water and mi see Killian and a girl r I should say, woman.